On this page I write my last confession

[Evrythng_im_not]

I have lived with this depression for too long and I'm sick and tired of it. For three years I have cut and burned and done everything I could to cause my self pain only for the release of everything. Every little thing pushes me so far to the edge. Last november I tried to kill myself and I almost succeded. Then once again in December... and if I'm not mistaken February.

Last night I cried myself to sleep because the pain just got too much. I'm trying not to cut anymore but I can't seem to stop. It's all I've really got anymore. No one can save me. I'm on my way to an end and I wish I could stop it... but I also welcome it. I love her so much. I love them both so much. It's starting to put so much on my heart and head that I don't know what to do. She tells me not to do it. They both do... but they both caused it.

I wish I wasn't feeling like this. I know where all the razors are in my house. I have a bottle of codeine. There are tons of sleeping pills in my house. What's stopping me? I want this... Don't I?

I do.







NOTE: A reply is not nessecary.

[PoisonousLove]

No1knos, I know exactly how it is, mate. Honestly, I say, do not do it.

I have been through it all, in only 16 years. Everything in the world that could possible tear a heart into pieces has happened to me. I've taken sleeping pills, I've stabbed, shot, cut, punched, broken, almost every part of my body. I've abused drugs, alcohol, and I've ever taken some of it out on my enemies.

This is not the way to go. I still have trouble handling it. Right now I am looking at the various scars and fresh cuts all the way down my arm. Truly, it disgusts me, but I cannot stop it.

Committing suicide isn't the path. This is terrible advice, but stay to cutting. Go deeper if you must. Just stick a certain path that keeps you away from blowing your own head off.

Just know when to quit.

[Sapphire]

I pray that you have not tried to end it all. I pray even harder that you have not suceeded if you have tried.
You can get through this. You can be happy again. You can live a happy life. It is possible.
You just have to try that little a bit harder. What doesn't kill us can only make us stronger. Wounds, emotional and physical, take time to heal. There is no shame in seeking help at times like this. Be it us here or a friend or a professional - all are steps in the right direction.
There is always hope. Even if it is only a slither of hope, it is still there.

[2412]

Please Don't!!!

[Φρανκομβριτ]

it would hurt those who love you, the ones you spoke of; more than you could ever possibly imagine. Sometimes the only reason I feel I'm here is because of my loved ones. I can't bear that pain upon them. I think you should see a doctor and / or counceler. You need help. Whenever you need advice, This site, and especially me, you can turn to. Stay safe.
xx

Cutting and self harm :arrow: depression

[I-Need-Help]

ok, you dont know me. but i'm not going to ramble on about how life is worth living, or about how you should seek professional help. because i hate councillors and sometimes i dont believe life is worth living. but i want you to know, that i know what it is to feel pain. and i dont want to try and make it all better for you because i cant.
i'm not saying this as someone who has felt pain and moved on because i havent. i still feel pain every day and i have no idea how to deal with it. sometimes i cut. sometimes i drink. sometimes i just force myself to forget the pain. which is something i can do very well because i've been doing it for 10 years. i dont even know what i'm trying to say to you.
i know there are people out there like me. take you for example. but i still dont know what to do. i think i just want you to know that you're not alone and that i'm here for you if you ever need anyone to talk to.

[what the?]

My self and quite a few of us on this site can speak from experience when we say that you won't always feel this way. You just have to stick it out, I know it's difficult and unfair, but things will get better. If you've tried to kill yourself before, then you really need to get to a doctor. Tell them about this, maybe you can get meds or counciling. If you've been admitted to hospital because of attempted suicide, then you should already have access to these.

You've got your whole life ahead of you, a life full of dreams and love and wonderment. Life isn't always like that, but the times that it is, make up for the times when it's not.

[slut bunwullah]

What EVER YOU DO DO NOT ATTEMPT TO TAKE YOUR LIFE!

You've got to stay strong. Keep going, if you end it now, you'd cheat fate and you'd destroy your family.. It is not a wise thing to do. I know this. Why You ask?

Because my brother hung himself in our garden shed.

Don't leave the ones who love you the displeasure of finding you, and the emotional pain of leaving the mortal world.

[Never_Forget]

I know how it feels, but if youre about to take your life think about this:
Why do I want to die?
What would it do to my family?

It would b selfish to kill yourself, i know it sounds crude, but thats the way it is. your family would be ripped apart, everyone who knows you would begin to hate themselves and tell themselves that it was THIER fault you died. all that emotional and physical pain tell you you're alive, dont waste your life, youwont get another chance at it.
all that emotional pain inside yu? ingore it, yeah, easier said than done but ignore it, ifyou listen to ityou wll only be even more and more depressed.

[Evrythng_im_not]

I'm too selfish. I am selfish.
I want this...

[heartagram72]

u r acting selfish, but come on...ur not really like that. and ur just 17. u have ur hole life ahead of u. slut buhnwhallah (or w/e) is right. it would tear apart your family. im cut, and thought about suicide myself.
call 1-800-suicide i've never called a hotline like this, but i know they work. if u kill urself im sure that it will tear apart the lives of ur freinds and family. and me and im sure that everyone else on VT will feel that they helped cause this, and they failed you. u may want a different life, or no life for that matter, but think about your family.
also, those people u said u still love... its ok. they just werent the right person. when my gf broke up with me, i wasnt sad. i just remained very close friends with her. try to find someone else, and maybe try to be friends with them. if listening to music, or writing poetry, or writing music, or reading, or anything makes u happy, do that. call 911, and tell them ur going to kill urself. they will put u into a hospital where u can get meds to help u.

[feel_the_silence]

trust me, soon you wont want this at all. You have a family and you have friends who love you, and it would kill them to lose you. it really would. think of them, think of your future. You have so much life left to live, dont give it up now! think of every chance you have to feel happy, you have a lifetime to fix yourself, a lifetime to find happiness. Don't you want to die happy, old, and knowing that you lived your life? if you dont feel that now, just know that you will soon. because killing yourself is the worst thing you could possibly do for yourself, and the people around you. Get help if you need it, don't destroy your future.

[daily2007]

theres so many things to enjoy while you live.... dont waste it i wish you could just add up your life to me coz mine is gonna end up soon...