Bulimic..

[Kirstenjoy]

I'm at the point now, where everything I eat makes my stomach hurt. But when I throw it up, I feel so much better. I've come to enjoy it actually. I honestly don't want to get better. I encourage myself to purge. I just want a decent body. I'm forced to look at myself everyday and admit that I'm fat. I know this is bad, but I just can't stop. Any help?

[1_21Guns]

Doing this won't get you a decent body, at all. You'll damage your internal organs possibly beyond repair and yeah, one big mess
Although it's a long process, healthy eating and exercise really is the only way to properly get and maintain a decent body, although I'm sure you don't need me to rant on about all that, it's best to see a doctor and get help instead of letting this develop into something life threatening

[purplebreez95]

I used to be bulimic its not good for you at all i used to do it for almost 6 months.. and i havent done it in 3 years.. my health is so f'ed up its not even funny i have painful ulcers in my stomach and esophagus.. and with no insurance i have to just deal with it.... yes it becomes addicting but it doesnt do anything for your weight im still obese. You will not get anything out of this other than pain and an increased likeliness for death

[georgiamay]

Like the others have said, you won't get a decent body by doing this. Actually, when you're in this cycle you end up absorbing most of the calories before you purge it.

I know what it feels like after, it's like you're so much lighter, physically and mentally, and you feel so calm. But it's really not worth it. To be honest, if it's got to a point where you honestly think you can't stop, or maybe you don't want to stop, even though you do want to recover, the only way to get better properly is to see a doctor. Honestly, eating disorders are so hard to recover from, and I don't know anyone that's managed to do it without professional help.

You won't be able to hide it from your parents forever, so instead of waiting until they find out some other way, why don't you tell them first? They'll be able to help you get help. At first, they might freak out, I'll be honest. They probably won't understand. But maybe if you print off some stuff about bulimia and eating disorders in general to give to them when you tell them, it might help.

I'm here if you need someone to talk to, just send me a PM :hug3:

[Mortal Coil]

I know what it's like to know that you're doing something that's not socially acceptable but still not want to quit. Admittedly, it's not bulimia, but I can tell you that like all of the others have said, it really won't get you a decent body and is more likely to damage it.
What you have is more like a psychological addiction, which means that it would be a good idea to see a psych about weaning yourself off of it. If you don't want to see a doctor, you can always get support from people on here, myself included.
You're not going to enjoy quitting. You will eat something and want to head to the bathroom immediately. Hell, you'll even give in to that urge, more times than you'd like, but if you want to get better, which I can only assume from the fact that you posted on here, then you will have a sense of accomplishment after every day, week, maybe even, when you're strong enough, month that you go without purging.
Best of luck, from the bottom of my heart.

[bigjohnson]

Really dont do it is bad for your body