Slightly want to throw myself off something lately.

[1_21Guns]

I just feel so cold and dead most of the time, I don't know what to do with myself anymore.
Home lifes great tbh, I don't have any problems, me and my mum get on really well (finally), but the past still haunts me. I'm still getting flashbacks, I'm still having fucked up daydreams, I've started having nightmares again.
I hate the nightmares, they're the worst. It's not even related to anything, it's just a big fucked up terrifying mess.
The other day I honestly wanted to die, and the sight of food is starting to repulse me again. I think it's probably just the stress of college, for the first time I've slacked on my work and now I'm behind.
I just seem to have neverending headaches, the voices in my head nearly cost me a friend. Everythings just draining me of all energy. I feel dead.
I was hoping the long walk I usually take would clear my head, but lately it's failed me.
I just don't know anymore.

[CuriousDestruction]

-hugs- The nightmares and lack of sleep are always some of the worst. And feeling dead and voices don't help either. You have made it this far. You know how bad and how amazing life can be. But you gotta be there to experience it. Stay strong and don't give up love. You know it gets better. <3

[1_21Guns]

I'm trying Michael :hug3:
I've just thrown up, so either mother nature really hates me that much, or I'm sick yet again, just so fucking drained -.-

[Bluerhino666]

Natalie, i feel your pain ive terrible nightmares and voices in my head making me do terrible things before...i have lost friends because of it but just remember that somebody is always worse off than you are. A couple hours of thinking, crying and screaming at myself made me feel so much better.