What can I do?

[dark_soul777]

Everything has started to go downhill again, just when I was starting to get my life back on track. I haven't been to school in 7 days (even though only 3 were school days), which means I'm behind. I can't be behind as I'm doping two VCE subjects. My depression is getting so much worse, I am honestly starting to think the world would be better of without me; again.
It's all so terribly familar. except this time It's worse. My medication makes me so tired I can rarely get out of bed, not getting out of bed means I miss school and missing school makes everything worse.
I just don't know what to do any more.
My cutting is getting out of control, not an hour goes by when I don't think about killing myself, I just can't take the world any more.
My psychologist is a fat middle-aged man with no idea about me, and I'm not seeing him for another three weeks. My parents have no idea how bad everything has gotten and I just don't know what to do.

School goes back after the long weekend tomorrow and I honestly don't think I can go, but I need to.

I'm sorry about my uber-rant and for the probable multitude of spelling mistakes, I'm just not in a good place at the moment.

[CuriousDestruction]

-hugs- Just so you know, the world would really miss you love. Please don't leave it. Have you considered seeing a therapist? Someone who knows you and you see at least once a week? they can really help. And it sounds like it's time to switch meds don't you think? Your parents can really help to if you tell them how bad it's getting. You may think they won't understand and maybe they won't, but having them know it's bad would probably help. You are a beautiful person, remember that. Stay strong love.

[AltoVaughn]

I don't think or anyone besides you can really solve you these types of problems. However I wanted to say that you're not alone in these feelings of what I'd call overwhelming dread. Stress, Anxiety, and Depression can all be treated in a variety of ways. I really suggest finding a new doctor if yours isn't working out for you. On a final note, just be proud that your still here. Life is difficult and being alive alone is an accomplishment, and i'm sure you have many others. Let me know how things go.