Afraid I won't bleed?

[Bath]

Ok so I have this irrational fear that one day, I'm just going to slice in and I won't bleed, it'll just be white flesh... and I know that's impossible, but it still bugs at me, and I'll start thinking about it and it adds to the problem I have with trying to stop. Because I'll cut just to see if I'll bleed.

Does anybody else have this fear? And if not, could you explain to me why I have it? I GUESS it's because recently when I cut I haven't been bleeding a lot, like the deeper it is, the longer it'll take for the blood to surface and start coming out. But I don't know, it feels like an obsessive compulsive thing.

[CuriousDestruction]

When your skin is broken and blood comes out, your body goes into overdrive clotting the arteries and veins to stop the blood flow and making the skin grow back faster. If you cut the same place regularly, chances are you may cut when the healing process is still taking place and the blood is still clotted there to some degree.

Sometimes I think I can put my hand in the fire and it won't burn. Which can be scary. But to some degree it helps me. Because as you said, it's impossible. The knowledge that it will burn me means I still fear. And the choice not to put it in the fire makes me stronger every day.