i think i really fucked up!!!

[ackmedsgirl666]

i miss my ex cody fisher like crazy.. I'm such an idiot for not giving him a chance to explain himself and what he did.. it wasn't even him that even did it but i thought it was and i told him to basically fuck off and i didn't even give him a chance to explain himself...... now i miss him like crazy... i have been tempted to cut over him but my current bf threatened a lecture if he found any cuts on my arms.... whereas cody has been cutting. he's been carving hate crosses and my initials with his which i know isn't normal and is unhealthy but he's so hurt.. he doesn't usually cut but lately its gotten to the point where he feels he has no choice. i still wanna be friends with him and be apart of his life but my bf will have no part of it.. he says i either have to pick him or cody!!!! and its killing me... either risk an 11 year friendship over this guy or stay with my best friend of 11 years.. our relationship has been shit because cody keeps finding some way to lure himself back in and then i feel bad and i cheat!! yes i have CHEATED!!!! which i really regret :( because all it did was make things worse. basically what makes it worse is my birthday is in 3 days.... and well i wanted to spend it with cody.. he was gonna take me out for a nice dinner and a movie whereas all my bf wants to do is drink on my birthday and idk if i wanna do that like the whole day and night.im not happy!!!!! well i was at first but now I'm not...idk what i should do.. its been stressing me out to the max like honestly idk what to do... so i turn to you VT viewers!!!! what should i do!!! drop cody... and be with mikey.... or drop mikey and be with the man i deeply love???

[Stronger]

Theres no way what so ever, you can be friends with Cody? I mean its your life not you bf's. Honestly now this is my opinion, I would keep the friendship over the one you love, thats a strong friendship you have and who knows how long the "love" will last, you know what I mean? At the end of the day, its your choice but I think keeping the friendship will be more benefical than keeping the one you love. But try and atleast talking to your bf, and tell him I don't wanna be with him just be friends, but you cheating puts a huge knife in the mess, but whats done is done, I wish you the best with this and hope you make the right choice

[Desuetude]

In the end it's your choice but if you're asking for out opinions then min is go with Cody. He seems to mean so much more to you and it sounds like you need each other. Your current boyfriend just sees to be an obstacle thats in the way, if he won't let you see your best friend even though he can probably tell it's hurting you then maybe you're better off without someone like that. I mean it's not his choice to tell you who you can be friends with and hang out with. On your birthday don't feel pressured into doing what your boyfriend what's, it's your day and you do whatever you want. If having dinner with Cody will make you happy then do that, don't let anyone hold you back from having a great day, you deserve it!