My urge

[ReasonsForWeeping]

It consists of pain burning pain and a Sharp pain Both are hard to keep at bay something in my head says do it slice your skin get the fork and the lighter sometimes it tells me to do both after i come home they wait for me when im at my weakest sometimes i resit it other times i give in i wish that i didnt need them but i do it help subside the emotion

Emotion scares me i dont like to feel unless its something i control then i float do you know what i mean when i say float i feel like im floating i dont walk i dont touch the ground i float above all of the emotions im supposed to feel

I dont like to feel is that weird?

everytime i let them be i get hurt and then i want to slice and burn i want to feel that pain to turn off everything else dose anyone else ever feel this broken?
or is it just me crazy and in need of a flame and slice

im afraid to tell anyone this i always play tough girl and pretend i dont get hurt

But actually im afraid im scared all the time im afraid of myself im afraid of everyone around me im scared to tell anyone how i really feel im afraid of rejection im afraid of my emotions

[CuriousDestruction]

It's natural to fear the unknown. To fear things with power. To fear things we don't understand. But to fear is also an emotion, a powerful primal emotion. It is okay to be afraid. It sounds to me like your self-harm seems to lead you away from your emotions, to a place where you don't have to deal with them.