Trying To Recover..

[MeltedCrayon]

Well, im sorry.. i just have to tell about this because i really wanna let it out right now and it hurts to just hold it in....

Everything was fine and normal intill i was 2 months, my daddy left me.. after that another guy had came in and was apparently my other daddy... he was my dad for a pretty long time. At the age of 3 that person had left and once again, another person came in, and got married to my mother. At that point, was my stepfather. Everything was nice, although he was allergic to everything i loved Such as : Pets, Certian Foods etc. He practiclly ruined my life with this and i got fed up with him although i told him i "Loved" him. At the age of 5 my breasts started to develop. At age 7 he molested me and he had forced me to do stuff i never knew about for 3 years. It Ended When i was 10 and officially able to tell my mother what was going on. I was never close to my mother at all. I dident like talking to her then and i never did now. I was always lonely as a child, and i never talked to anybody but myself and my bro and sis. Sorry for jumping around from age to age, i dont really know what to say...

[HandheldOutlaw]

I know how it is to get it all out, especially in a way that's not confusing, and perfectly chronological.

I'm here if you ever want to talk about anything.

Thinking of you.
xx
Laur

[bobynrobyn]

you go gurl...i don't think any of us gurls don't go thru some kinda shit while growing up . i never was a cutter or anything like that, but the alcohol and drugs was sure of a pain killer........now all i have is a mess everytime i even use a little . i live up by mt rainier and some times i just drive up into the woods and scream and scream until i cry...makes me feal good alover:yes::yes: right now em going thru stuff with b/f again..he keeps sayen no big deal, but i look at some of my freinds and there not going thru it(yelling and slaping me around) . my friend at work says im crazy for stayen w/him....but no balls to leave ! someway i promised myself i was going to leave befor sumer, iv been saving my tip monies so my other g/f and i can move in t gether.....shes going thru same stuff. we got it figured out if we stay its just gonna get worse....just don't do anything stupid !!!!!!!
a/d is stupid enough for me

bobynrobyn

[NaturalBornPervert]

Did he touch you in the no-no zone? You should've kicked him right in the balls. I sympathize for your situation greatly, and I wish you the best of luck in your recovery from this traumatic event.

[Toto]

-Hugs-
Are you okay? You went through alot! By the way, how was your mother`s reaction when you told her about your stepdad? Have you told your siblings or someone close? That helps. Hopefully you mother should do something about it.

[Mortal Coil]

I'm glad you managed to let it out. It's unfair that he did that to you and it's good that you told your mom. I'm always here to talk (no really, VT is my addiction) so pm me if you need anything or even just want a little conversation.

[Desuetude]

It's okay that you don't know what to say sometimes it's good just to get it all out knowing other people will read it.
I'm always here to talk (no really, VT is my addiction) so pm me if you need anything or even just want a little conversation.
^ That's exactly the same for me so if you ever need to talk just PM me :)

[Breakeven]

awww im here if u need someome to talk too :)

[JJSSHH]

Im sorry you had to go through all this. You have gone through a lot of trauma in your life, that no one deserves. If you need someone to talk to, im here and so are a lot of other places. Try calling the boys town hotline (1-800-448-3000). They help a lot. Best of luck :)