constantly depressed..

[RaGe]

uhm yea..latley i have been more depressed then ever andit goes from extreme depression ( were im suicidle) to a little depressed and i mean i am never happy anymore... i try to act happy for everyone elses sake...but somtimes i wish i had people who i could be myself with but i feel liek i make everyone worry and put everyone in a shit hole.....and today i told a bunch of my friends i wasnt going to talk to them anymore so i could start new but what if i cant find anyone that i can act myself around with out beeing totally guitly... :(

[RaGe]

heh

[Φρανκομβριτ]

I know how you feel! Look for something else you can do to keep your mind of your depression. I've taken up tennis. Is there anything you are good at or enjoy doing? Is there a reason why you try to act happy (are you afraid what people will think, etc.)? Remember that your friends are your friends because they like you. Look for a group of people that have the smae interests as you (stating the obvious), and don't try and change yourself to fit in. It will only make you feel left out.

[WakeUp]

there is no point in acting happy, although, i do believe a lot of being depressed is just paranoyer about things, but, try and get your mind of these bad things, and think about wats good in life!
there are so many things, even thou its so easy to get caught up in the bad things!
hang in there
jake

[RaGe]

well...its not that i care what they think so much ..its that i do care about them and they are always saying there happy when im happy ...soo if i am always happy that leaves them no reason to be unhappy and then they wont have to worry about me or my problems.,....... and i dunno ..i havent really found any thign i like to do ..especially here all there is here is religion ........... but id o enjoy terrorizing this state does that count lol ?

[WakeUp]

focus on yourself, not about others, and whether they are worrying about you or not.
i'm trying to help but ive never been depressed myself
:(

[RaGe]

...o well ...meh

[Φρανκομβριτ]

well...its not that i care what they think so much ..its that i do care about them and they are always saying there happy when im happy ...soo if i am always happy that leaves them no reason to be unhappy and then they wont have to worry about me or my problems

Your firends are happy when you are happy, but if you have a problem, they are there to help. Thats another thing firends are for. Don't feel like you are bringing them down. Remember that everyone needs someone to talk to, and friends are good people to talk to.

and i dunno ..i havent really found any thign i like to do

Have you looked around to see if there is anything? Have you ever seen something and think oh, thats cool? Look about! And I forgot to say good luck!

[WakeUp]

lol, since i joined VT i realised how shitty this world can be, but there are so many good things too

[Φρανκομβριτ]

you always have to look for the posotive side Jake!

RaGe, I saw your peice in the creative writing forrum. And you said you wern't good at anything! That's an excelent way to express yourself! It may not get you to forget, but you still get out the emotions!