Is this it?

[Evrythng_im_not]

I post in this alot. many of you know me and have either helped me, or called me out on being something I'm not. I'm not lying or seeking attention. But I just want to know... is this it? I'm scared. Since I was fourteen (I'm seventeen, almost eighteen now) I've been a cutter. I love it and i crave it. It seems like it's the only way to make things right anymore. I upset someone, and I cut. Someone upsets me, and I cut. I get stressed out, or sad, or anything... and I cut. Is this it? Is this what my life is going to be like forever. Someone told me how chemically burn myself... I've started doing that now, too. I don't know anymore... this is it... isn't it? This is going to be my life... full of scars and blood...

Celia... I know you're going to read this. I know you're going to be upset. I'm sorry my love.

[Lifesreject]

I no its onli a bit of advice but i hope it helps. Get some help you should go 2 ur doctor n tell them what u ahve been doin and thay can get u proffecinal help. I used to cut and this is what stopped me. U dont have to lead ur whole life cutting i now it will b hard 2 talk 2 some1 and it was for me but it will get betta if u c sum1 it may take a while but it will

Good Luck
:thumbsup:

[Antares]

could you describe "chemically burning"
is that like putting alchohol on the wounds?

[Evrythng_im_not]

I can't describe how to do it. It hurts... that's all I can tell you... that's all I'm allowed to tell you. Because of the rules of this site I don't want you to do it. If you IM me though, I'll tell you how to do it. It's really easy.

[RequiemForADeath]

My dear Chysella,

I'm very sorry for waking you up, yet a second time tonight. But please answer me this.. was I how you found out how to burn? please.. please stop at least the burning. If it takes me sending you pictures of my arms and my legs and my burn scars then so be it.. you'll see what your celia is.. all scars.. all her skin taken up by at least over 500 scars.. deep and shallow.. short and long. please im begging you just at least stop the burning and well work on stopping the cutting. i love you to much to sit idly by and see this happen to you.

<3

[Paradox1228]

stop

[RequiemForADeath]

you cant just tell someone to stop and have them stop paradox, its not that simple.

[Evrythng_im_not]

yea, okay... I'll stop


WHEN I'M FUCKING DEAD







Sorry Celia... I love you

[MoveAlong]

Is this it?
no. or only if you make it that way.

[Antares]

this is not going to be it. it only will if you let it and i know that you dont want this to be it. you have to strive for this not to be your life. you HAVE to try. dont give up.

[penirisheug]

Kinda off topic but to the topic creator:

Is that you in your avatar. No offense but wtf is your problem?

[PoisonousLove]

I post in this alot. many of you know me and have either helped me, or called me out on being something I'm not. I'm not lying or seeking attention. But I just want to know... is this it? I'm scared. Since I was fourteen (I'm seventeen, almost eighteen now) I've been a cutter. I love it and i crave it. It seems like it's the only way to make things right anymore. I upset someone, and I cut. Someone upsets me, and I cut. I get stressed out, or sad, or anything... and I cut. Is this it? Is this what my life is going to be like forever. Someone told me how chemically burn myself... I've started doing that now, too. I don't know anymore... this is it... isn't it? This is going to be my life... full of scars and blood...

Celia... I know you're going to read this. I know you're going to be upset. I'm sorry my love.

I know what this is. This is what I go through every day, every hour of my life. Just today my love broke up with me over it. I can't stop, even to help keep them happy. I've lost too many friends. Do you want to be like me? Alone? Addicted to drugs? Scars as dark as black? That's all my arm is.

[MoveAlong]

Kinda off topic but to the topic creator:

Is that you in your avatar. No offense but wtf is your problem?

Hey, if you want to stray off-topic and ask a personal question/off-topic question like this, PM the person, don't post in their thread =]

[Evrythng_im_not]

Kinda off topic but to the topic creator:

Is that you in your avatar. No offense but wtf is your problem?

Oh yea. Let me tell you... NO it's not me. I wouldn't post a picture of me in a web forum where people could know me. And for wtf my problem is... have you not read any of my posts on here??

[Everglow]

no1knos, I'm glad to know you're still alive. That bottle of codeine had me worried. Please keep trying to fight off the urge. I know it's difficult, but your life is important, regardless of what you are feeling right now. I know you've been at rock bottom for a very long time now, but I also know that you've got it in you to keep trying. We all slip up in our own personal struggles against suicide, self harm and depression, but it is ok. We are human; we can't erase and instantly heal from our torments. Hang on hoping for your change, because I know you can do it.

I guess I should also add that you can't text me anymore, at least not until my parents unblock my texting privileges. I went way over my limit :neutral:

[Evrythng_im_not]

jma08... sadly I got very injured this past may and I lost my phone and everyone's phone numbers so I no longer have yours v.v
If you wanna give me a call some time some time so I have it again that would be great.