Relapsing

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

I havent been very active on Virtual teen lately. Things have just been too busy. Ive stopped self harming for the past 5 months. Ive started eatting again. But everywhere I look I see so many triggering things. Knives,razors,lighters,ext. These ideas pop into my head,like if i break this,or i go steal that...just alittle. Well no one will notice if i do it here....Just once more..And im afraid im going to fall into the same old patterens as before..I guess im so scared because ive relapsed before,and everytime i do, I have deeper cuts,bigger bruises, longer burns, and more broken bones. I dont know what to do. Please HELP ME!! :(

[georgiamay]

5 months is excellent, you should be so proud of that.

I get like this every once in a while. Everything around me can be used as a tool to hurt myself with. I think a lot of people get like that, especially after a long period of time without it.

The truth is, I don't think they'll ever completely go away, the urges I mean. It'll just get so easy to ignore then that you barely notice them. Can I ask, is there anything stressful going on in your life right now? Things you don't really know how to deal with? If there are then that's probably why. You get so used to hurting yourself to deal with difficult situations that when you find yourself in one, your mind jumps to it straight away.

I wouldn't say you're "relapsing," like you seem to think. I think it's just part of recovery. You'll have to push through the urges to get to the other side, and you have to admit, urges always pass, don't they? And that's what you need to tell yourself. No matter how much you want to do it, and no matter how much you feel like you're going to explode, the feeling will always pass. Maybe it'll come back, but it'll come back if you hurt yourself as well. Tell yourself that you'll be okay. Because you will, you will be okay if you can get through it.

You know where I am if you need me. :hug3:

[HandheldOutlaw]

5 months is amazing, and better than most could do. That proves you're stronger than you probably believe you are. It's an addiction, and like all "real" chemical addictions (drugs) it's super easy to fall back into.

But no matter what, you are stronger than any urge.
Instead of trying to cover up your feelings, feel them. All of them. If it helps, write down what you feel, break it down into something you can understand.

I'm sorry if this wasn't helpful.
xx Wishing the best