Done with everything..

[xXl0sth0peXx]

hahaha. another pointless shitty thread from me. how cool.

I'm so god fucking sick. Of life, of living. of doing everything. I would be better off dead. I want to be dead.

I'm sick of being at home. Where I'm bashed and put down. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm stupid. I'm faking. I'm Goth. I'm Emo. I'm a waste of space honestly. There are so many people out there who die and don't deserve it. Yet I deserve it and don't. I'm sick of people just fucking bashing me. It's like I have no god damm fucking emotions. That they can say anything and it's all fine. And fuck.. my own family too. I just wanna be good enough for once. I want to be the one that gets treated nice and who gets stuff.

I'm sick of SH and ED and being dumb. I'm so far behind in school I don't even see the point anymore. I don't see why to even try. I'm to dumb to pay attention anyways. Always sidetracked in my dumbass emotions or something gay. I'm sick of the starving and puking and the cutting and burning and god knows what else. I wanna stop.. But I can't.. I feel so alone.. I want someone so badly.. Yet I know I don't deserve anyone. And I never will. I'm not good enough. And no one wants a fucking ugly stupid fat person like me.. I see no reason to get out of bed each day. I see no reason to get up and live. I don't know why I'm here still..

My life's a fucking joke. I'm sick of lying. I walked into my GP for another appointment since she found out about my SH.. and she was all you look so happy and so much better! I'm sick of being lied to. I'm sick of people rummaging through my stuff. I'm sick of being backstabbed. I'm sick of people fucking with my emotions. I'm sick of being haunted because of my fucking actions.

I don't belong here.. I don't get what's so hard about that.. I see absolutely no reason to live anymore.. I see no reason to go on. It doesn't get better, and it never will. Everyone fucking says that.. and it doesn't. I wanna go and just do stupid stuff and fuck myself up.. No reason not to at this point.. I wanna just turn to drugs and shit. It's fucking taking everything I have to not take the bottle of pills I have. I just wanna OD.. I just want be gone.. The world would be better off without me anyways..

[Stronger]

Val, you are none of that stuff you said, I find you really gorgous. This may not seem like alot coming from me, but I consider you a friend and so do the rest of us on VT, even those who are really close to you. You deserve a whole lot more than what's going on in your life, the world would certainly not be better without you, you were put here for some good reason, you have yet to discover it. Someone some beautiful person is out there for you and is waiting for you. But don't feel loney, cause you have us and you gone would just hurt us all hard, you do't have to take me serious, but I do feel bad, about your life and I really hope things get better, you are just one the funniest, awesome-ist, gorgous, person I ever met and I love how you talk to me, I hope one day I get to meet you in person. Stay strong <3

[Jupiter]

no matter how many threads you make, we will care.

i know how you feel. i know EXACTLY how you feel. not everything is okay, but i promise things get better.

we love you, val. we really do. you know that looks aren't everything. unfortunately, people do die, and they don't deserve it. no one deserves to die. no matter how awful. some people believe this, and I wish i could impress to you how much you really do mean to us.

it's so easy to get distracted. we all have times when we are far behind. what we need to do, is study, learn, and just pay attention. all the shit that gets in the way doesn't matter anymore. all we can do is out everything behind us and move on forward.

people fuck with emotions. people will TRY to make us feel better. they just don't know. like i said, we need to pick up the peices, but sometimes, that does take awhile.


you could think of a million reasons to be dead, right? but there is always at least ONE reason to stay alive. the reason is to help others. you are so great. you help so many people. val, you are like.. one of the nicest, most unselfish person i have met.

:hug:

[ImCoolBeans]

Val, we've gotten to be friends and I really and honestly don't think that you're a waste of space, you're amazing, you really never cease to amaze me. Those conversations that we had with people, to be a part of that with you was amazing, and I don't think I would have rather gone into that dark area with anybody else.

To the people who are abusing you like that; fuck them. I've been backstabbed, I've been overweight, I've thought that I was ugly. It hurts, and the feeling is really not a great one. But you really need to remember that we are all here for you. I think that seeing a professional might be good for you to be honest, Val. I really don't want to see anything happen to you, it would truly be a tragedy.

You are a beautiful person and you are always so willing to help a friend, or someone who is not a friend, in need. I enjoy moderating with you so much - I think you, Jo and I work really well together, and I like where it is going. Keep your spirits high, because you're an amazing person and only deserve the best. Good things are on your horizon, Val.

You know how to get to me if you ever need anything at all, and you know that I'm always more than willing to help in any way that you need. Be well, be safe.

~ Love Mikey

[Thunduhbuhlt]

hahaha. another pointless shitty thread from me. how cool.

I'm so god fucking sick. Of life, of living. of doing everything. I would be better off dead. I want to be dead.

I'm sick of being at home. Where I'm bashed and put down. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm stupid. I'm faking. I'm Goth. I'm Emo. I'm a waste of space honestly. There are so many people out there who die and don't deserve it. Yet I deserve it and don't. I'm sick of people just fucking bashing me. It's like I have no god damm fucking emotions. That they can say anything and it's all fine. And fuck.. my own family too. I just wanna be good enough for once. I want to be the one that gets treated nice and who gets stuff.

I'm sick of SH and ED and being dumb. I'm so far behind in school I don't even see the point anymore. I don't see why to even try. I'm to dumb to pay attention anyways. Always sidetracked in my dumbass emotions or something gay. I'm sick of the starving and puking and the cutting and burning and god knows what else. I wanna stop.. But I can't.. I feel so alone.. I want someone so badly.. Yet I know I don't deserve anyone. And I never will. I'm not good enough. And no one wants a fucking ugly stupid fat person like me.. I see no reason to get out of bed each day. I see no reason to get up and live. I don't know why I'm here still..

My life's a fucking joke. I'm sick of lying. I walked into my GP for another appointment since she found out about my SH.. and she was all you look so happy and so much better! I'm sick of being lied to. I'm sick of people rummaging through my stuff. I'm sick of being backstabbed. I'm sick of people fucking with my emotions. I'm sick of being haunted because of my fucking actions.

I don't belong here.. I don't get what's so hard about that.. I see absolutely no reason to live anymore.. I see no reason to go on. It doesn't get better, and it never will. Everyone fucking says that.. and it doesn't. I wanna go and just do stupid stuff and fuck myself up.. No reason not to at this point.. I wanna just turn to drugs and shit. It's fucking taking everything I have to not take the bottle of pills I have. I just wanna OD.. I just want be gone.. The world would be better off without me anyways..

The only person that needs your approval is yourself. Who fucking cares what others think? Everyone is wrong, it's human nature to point out the bad things in people and some people get some sort of "happiness" by saying those things about you. Everyone who says you are ugly is wrong. You are beautiful in your own way. You are the perfect image that God wanted (sorry to bring up religion if you aren't into it), he makes no mistakes. He has a plan for you, and you're probably right, it might still be shitty in a year, 2 even 5, but look at yourself in 10-20 years. Think about what you want to see in yourself. if you want to be married and have kids, or be a doctor or even work at McDonalds. The only thing that is stopping you from reaching those goals is yourself. A great man once said, "Whether you think you can, or you can't, you're right." You create your future. Fuck all of those dumbasses who talk shit and tell you all of those lies. You deserve the best. You are a human being and are entitled to the best. There is something for you that is coming. I know you want to die, but think about if you did die, there is someone who would be crying at your funeral. My cousin died after saying all of the time that she wished she could die, and she did. No life should be taken by suicide. No matter what it's like now, you can make it better, you can make it work. Go out and try to be happy, I bet you can. You can do anything you put your mind to. And I care...now you have at least one person who does.