I just want to fit in.

[rissa-_-]

This may sound stupid, but whatever. I was on the cross country team this past fall. The team had a reunion at the bowling alley this past Friday. I wasn't included in the group of people. No one told me about it, no one brought up the subject. It made me feel like everyone on the team hates me. I mean they have a strong hatred towards me, but we're suppose to be a family. It doesn't seem like it. And when it comes to school i feel seperated from everyone. I feel like everyone that passes me starts judging and laughting at me. Some of my friends don't even talk to me anymore. It makes me feel like they're better than me. I hate seeing myself as a loser no one wants to talk to. And now i'm joining the soccor team, even there i feel like everyone judges me. I know i'm not the best at the sport, but i try to fit in. I don't want to be known as that quiet girl that sits by herself most of the time.

[Jdawg91]

Free you mind from the clutches of peer pressure,you have to realize that people aren't all looking at and judging you they all have their own issues to deal with. Do what you want and don't feel pressured to impress, if you feel as if you need to be heard then step up and be yourself that will attract peoples attention.

[Borxar]

Hmm, Im sorry. Was there a reason they judge you? How did you get on when you were in the team? People often dont realise how painful it can be to exclude someone and I hope you are able to connect to someone who realises that they made a mistake. You have value and deserve to be appreciated, so their judgements are not accurate and are needless really. They are missing out as well.

[Clawhammer]

Lassy, they ain't worth your time of day. Trying to fit in is going to cause you a lot more pain than learning to stand on your own two feet. They'll never be satisfied. Trying to fulfill their every expectation for fear of judgement sucks the life out of you. But you are yourself and you can be self-sufficient. Just keep your chin up and get to know yourself. Give yourself some time, you'll be alright.