TurboDieselBandit
February 27th, 2012, 03:37 AM
I just read a lot of threads with people talking about how coming out feels great and how posting there feelings here help. I know no oneikes a long thread to read but figured I should finally try because I like to hear you-all's thoughts. I read everyone's input; no responses on my threads goes unread by me. Long story short, I've thought I may be going through a phase of being bi since I was 10 and didn't tell anyone but two of my close guy friends, one of which I "have fun" with. Despite this, I am a strong Christian and have read about this in the bible and its pretty clear, in my opinion, about how God views such things.
Now I'm in my first year of college, although I should technically still be in high school for my age, and I still have yet to come out. Now would be a good time because college gives me a fresh start, its a completely new environment with more people and a chance to redefine myself as who ever I want to be. Furthermore, now that I'm pretty sure bisexual is here to stay, I feel the pressure weighing on me to come out. Problem is, there's not a good selection of guys at school to pursue a relationship with so Idk who I would even tell here at school and don't see how it will help. I bet I could tell my mom and she would be accepting of me although there are no homosexuals in the family; but I don't think I'm ready to do that yet because of how it will make me look. I don't want family viewing me differently or being dissatisfied with my sexuality. Like I said, I feel like I'm truly bi, I would like to have a BF, but couldn't marry a guy. What in the world should I do about this unique situation? I want to experience the relief and joy but ask myself "why do people need to know anyway if I'm not interested them?"
Okay, its 3:38am and I have class at 9:00am tomorrow. Time for sleep.
Now I'm in my first year of college, although I should technically still be in high school for my age, and I still have yet to come out. Now would be a good time because college gives me a fresh start, its a completely new environment with more people and a chance to redefine myself as who ever I want to be. Furthermore, now that I'm pretty sure bisexual is here to stay, I feel the pressure weighing on me to come out. Problem is, there's not a good selection of guys at school to pursue a relationship with so Idk who I would even tell here at school and don't see how it will help. I bet I could tell my mom and she would be accepting of me although there are no homosexuals in the family; but I don't think I'm ready to do that yet because of how it will make me look. I don't want family viewing me differently or being dissatisfied with my sexuality. Like I said, I feel like I'm truly bi, I would like to have a BF, but couldn't marry a guy. What in the world should I do about this unique situation? I want to experience the relief and joy but ask myself "why do people need to know anyway if I'm not interested them?"
Okay, its 3:38am and I have class at 9:00am tomorrow. Time for sleep.