The Internal Battle

[smalltowngirl9189]

I take another pill
Drag outta bed
A smile that lies to the world
Lies and Rumors spread
"I'm so sorry you lost your dad?!"
Since when the fuck is he dead?
I battle throught the day
Battle through the pain
Battle the challengers
I take the challenge
I fake courage
Courage I don't have
Am I insane?
People say I'm strong
Ive lost my friends
My family
The life I knew
Yet I'm battling it out with you
You take it as ignorance
I take it as fustration
I fuck up
I deny my life
Push it away, until it's outta sight
All the pain bottled up
It's insane
The adrenaline rushes
My veins start pumping
My goals get clearer
My goals get farther
The goals in sight- out of mind
Blood and tears
Take you to the top
What do I do?
I can't prove myself
I'm scared
I'm sad
I'm angry
I don't let it show
I disappear
Alone I fall
Depression's deep
Deeper than you and me
I give up
Yet I hear that I'm strong
It pisses me off
People don't even know my name
Yet they know who I am
You don;t hear me complain
As I push through the pain
But whatever fuck this shit