First time I cut myself

[Yehudis13]

Last night, my mother lashed out, and threatened to take my brother and I to an orphanage, of we didn't stop acting up. She also threatened to call child services. I know she has tried to kill herself in the past, and I was really mad about the whole situation, so I took a knife and cut my arm up. I don't know what to do now. It felt good when I did it, and after, but I'm worried my mother will see, because it is on the lower part of my arm, and my mother and I aren't in the best relationship now. I cut myself again tonight because of other issues, and it is worse than before. I don't know what to do. Ow, because my arm is in really bad shape, and my mother will ask questions. Help please??

[Jupiter]

Wow, I'm very sorry.

I do have to ask, what made you pick up the knife? I know how I was feeling when I tried it, but who told you that this would be a good thing?

I know, this sucks. One of the best things to do is try to stop. It's way easier now, instead of waiting a long time and still doing it. What I suggest you do is find a hobby you can do, when you feel stressed. In the mean time, try to keep them covered while they heal.

[Yehudis13]

Wow, I'm very sorry.

I do have to ask, what made you pick up the knife? I know how I was feeling when I tried it, but who told you that this would be a good thing?

I know, this sucks. One of the best things to do is try to stop. It's way easier now, instead of waiting a long time and still doing it. What I suggest you do is find a hobby you can do, when you feel stressed. In the mean time, try to keep them covered while they heal.

I read some books about this. I am depressed right now, but not diagnosed. I feel deppressed. I read about cutting, and the characters felt release. My friend had done it. I just wasn't thinking straight. I don't feel bad about what I did though. The knife was just there, and so I went into the bathroom and cut myself. I cried a lot afterwards, but it was relieving to get it off my chest. I also wrote things on my body, like that I'm fat and useless in a pen that was on the bathroom counter

[Jupiter]

Make sure you wash them out, and maybe even put a band aid on there, so that it won't get infected.

Are you going to try and stop?

[Yehudis13]

Make sure you wash them out, and maybe even put a band aid on there, so that it won't get infected.

Are you going to try and stop?

I don't know. I don't want to. It is a way to hurt myself, and tell myself I'm a bitch. I'm putting myself down by hitting myself, and it feels good. My pain feels good. I washed out the cuts, and there is a bandaid on one big one.

[Jupiter]

Do you think it really helps in the long run?

[Yehudis13]

Do you think it really helps in the long run?

No. But future won't come for me, if I keep living in the state I am in now.

[Jupiter]

I think what you need is to talk to a professional counselor. Maybe it could be your school one, maybe you'll have to talk to your mom to get one.

[Yehudis13]

I think what you need is to talk to a professional counselor. Maybe it could be your school one, maybe you'll have to talk to your mom to get one.

I cant tell anyone about this. I have so many problems already, and I'm already seeing a counselor about my dad. I have an eating disorder, and cuttings the way I escape from my living hell.

[Jupiter]

I cant tell anyone about this. I have so many problems already, and I'm already seeing a counselor about my dad. I have an eating disorder, and cuttings the way I escape from my living hell.

Maybe talk to your counselor about your mother.

What happened to your dad?

[Yehudis13]

Maybe talk to your counselor about your mother.

What happened to your dad?

My dad was abusive, and he left when i was 11. He was physically abusive. He once put a burning stick on my fingertips, and he threw me to the floor, and slapped me when I was naked with a stick from a tree. He would use the metal side of a belt, and slap my face with it. Those were bad times

[Jupiter]

I'm sorry about that. That sucks. I hope that you have the strength to move on after that incident, because that is awful.

Anyway, back to the topic. Do you want help? Do you need someone there, someone to talk to. Someone you can open up to?

[Yehudis13]

I'm sorry about that. That sucks. I hope that you have the strength to move on after that incident, because that is awful.

Anyway, back to the topic. Do you want help? Do you need someone there, someone to talk to. Someone you can open up to?

I have a therapist who helps me with other issues, but I don't want to talk about my cutting, as I said, it is my getaway from the living hell I am I'm right now

[Jupiter]

But maybe talking could be a gateway.

[Yehudis13]

But maybe talking could be a gateway.

Talking is interacting, and I am not in any state to interact face to face

[Jupiter]

So maybe with your next post, you could start talking to someone on here about it? Make a blog?

[Yehudis13]

So maybe with your next post, you could start talking to someone on here about it? Make a blog?

I don't want to end it though. I just want to talk to people who have similar situations

[Jupiter]

Well, I know that there are plenty of people with a somewhat similar situation.

Congrats on the 100 posts. I am always free to talk. That is.... except for the rest of the night. I need some sleep.

[Yehudis13]

Well, I know that there are plenty of people with a somewhat similar situation.

Congrats on the 100 posts. I am always free to talk. That is.... except for the rest of the night. I need some sleep.

Goodnight. I didn't realize my posts. I tried not to spam anything and give good information and help.

[Jupiter]

You did well.

[Yehudis13]

You did well.

You checked my posts?

[Jupiter]

i've been reading quite a few, as I have been responding to them

[Yehudis13]

i've been reading quite a few, as I have been responding to them

I try my hardest. Not here to get 100,000 posts. I'm here to help and to get help