Scars

[Wintergirl_80.0]

On the out side you see me

happy and smiling

Laughing and joking like everything is perfect

But what you don’t see

is the burning

The tears that I hold inside

the urge to run and never look back

hoping that maybe I can escape

the knifes call so prominent before

is now barley a whisper

no longer begging for me too bleed

it no longer brings relief

nothing can accept moving on but I cant move on

not with this secret so caged in my mind

not when it tears me up from the inside

I need to let it out

Not just to myself

But who can I trust?

who is strong enough to carry this secret?

People know it happened but only few know details.

And none have heard me voice it.

But have voiced it.

Once

Only once

Three days ago

I said the words that have been hidden for eleven years

I am the only one who heard

Then I cried

I cried tears that are a result of the scars

that run so deep in my heart

I pass it off pretend it doesn’t hurt

But it does

It does.