Not many things can keep me going.

[Antagonist]

Nothing can really keep me going anymore. Theres too mich turmoil. Too much scrutiny. I cant do anything about it. Its out my my hands. New girl comes to our school and people say to her "Oh thats noah. Hes the bi kid." Others say "Stay away from him. Hes a Wiccan."

I am so tirrd of stereotypes being the evil tyrants of this wasteland called earth. Theres nothing but war. Nothing but lies. And the few true humans here are drowning. Drowning in the lies, and false hopes.

I should just, Leave. Leave to some where else. Dying. Would be nice.

Music is the only thing, along with friends, that keep me going. I love them both so much, but its so hard to escape to my own Neverland with them when the real world is tryingnto break down my door.

I hate myself. I broke my ex's heart. By accident. This is why i can barely trust people.

Ugh..

[Camazot]

im confused on what your asking or trying to tell us.

but i just have to say that it seems ur in a small town? and when something isnt "normal" people jump at it and it hurts u to sde that

and how did u break ur ex's heart

i understand now ur Noah...so people are being asses to u because ur bi. im sorry. all i can say is keep pushing forward...lifes tough but guess no good things come with ease because life is tough we have to be tough. and i know u can be because uve lasted this long...i believe in you. just dont give up.

[Antagonist]

Im just looking for general help...
Yeah.
And. I posted a rant in a geoup im in on facebook, and one of her friends showed her.

[Skyhawk]

People judging you just because of your religion? They need a life.

So you broke your ex's heart? What kind of things did you say in the rant? Did you want anyone but your ex to read it?

[Wicked_Syn]

I know the world is hard and school is nothing but a prison. Believe me, I'm in a complete hate relationship with school. No, not love-hate, just straight hate.

You mentioned in your post that you have a few friends who for you, have helped you rough it out. Well do you think it would be fair to them if you ended your life? No it wouldn't. It's selfish of you to take away something so special from them. That's not your choice.

I know you didn't mention it, but I wouldn't go to drugs neither. I've seen many documentaries and many people in real life become destroyed from drugs and alcohol.

I used to be teased when I was younger when I was much more heavier. People were harsh, but I told myself that I'm better than them and that I'll go somewhere in life. I told myself that I'm better than them because I was. I wasn't teasing other people because they were fat or what not. Never. Still to this day.

I know the days seem long and hard. Believe me, I do know. I've had the experience, but all you can really do at the moment is just keep your head up. Yes. Keep your head up. Maybe you can do online school? I highly suggest you try to do online school if you think the bullying at school is getting to you to much. But yes, keep your head up and stay strong! When you're old enough, move away. Move to some place you've always wanted to visit. I'm sure you'll find a great community there. For example, San Francisco is the gay capital of the world basically...not that I'm suggesting you move there, just move you of your town you're in right now when you are old enough and just say "fuck em"

"Fuck every single person who has put me down because of who I am"

You are a human man, you have a right to live and be happy. People will be douche bags, but thatls temporary. You have the choice to not deal with for the rest of your life.

If you ever need anything, I am there to talk.

[KarkatLuv]

I'm sorry, but I will no answer your question, i have much more important things to say. 1. Can you teach me how to be a wiccan? I am a catholic but wiccan sounds much more intresting and it is a very fascinating religion. 2. You're a Wiccan AND you're bi? Life's unfair, i would love to be your friend irl, but I don't live where you do, guess i will just need to settle for internet friend

[Antagonist]

Thank you, you guyss.
It wouldnt be fair if I killed myself, but it seems so much easier.
I will never do online school. I love my friends and teachers too much <3
And drugs? Eww. X.x