Everything is getting worse.

[beebs]

Everything is getting so much worse. The cutting is getting deeper. And my bestfriend is getting emotional about it, saying she will start if i dont stop, and she will tell my mum. I dont know what to do. I do want to stop, but i also dont. I just dont know, i dont know who to ask for help. I cant tell my mum. Or any adult in my life. But its getting real dangerous. And im getting scared about it. But i tried the Butterfly Project, but i gave in after a few hours.

I dont see the point in things anymore, im getting in way more trouble at school because im not doing homework and i cant concentrate.

I dont know what to do anymore :'(

[CuriousDestruction]

-hugs- baby girl nobody else can fight this fight for you. If you want to get better you have to want to get better. And you can't do it for your friend or your parents, only for you. If you decide you want to stop, there will be people who will support you. VT will support you. Your friends will support you. And things like the Butterfly Project will help keep you on track. But until then it doesn't sound like things are going to get any better love. Stay strong.

[KarkatLuv]

mabye you could go at it like gamblers do, tell the people you can trust most, and expell the possibilty of being able to cut, eg. making sure you have no sharp objects are around. I'm sorry i don't really know much about this subject but i feel it is my duty as a kind human to try and help. :hug:

[Mortal Coil]

I know it's wrong to lie to people, but definitely hide it from your friend if you continue. You don't want her to become addicted and hurt her body the way you do.
Also, she can't possibly understand how hard it is for us to quit until it's too late.
when you get the urge to cut, hop in the shower ASAP. I'm serious. Idc if it's freezing cold, that might actually be a good substitute. I take my showers a little too hot and it has the same effect.
Dig your fingernails into your palms, pluck your eyebrows or something, punch your mattress, do something either violent or that causes a similar sensation to stop yourself.
You can pick yourself up, I know that feeling where you want to quit but... don't.
It's the feeling every addict is familiar with.
Stay strong!

[ShootingStar]

Message me if you want to talk? Things WILL get better :)
SS...x

[Amaryllis]

It's kind of like you want to be happy but you're not? And you know you shouldn't cut but nothing else will make the pain shut up and go away for a minute? I know the feeling. Sometimes you just want to curl into a ball and disappear from the face of humanity.

Life is hard and depression is painful. Deep sadness isn't something you can just "get over" and neither is self-harm. It requires a lot, a lot of strength and resilience to conquer. And it is rarely something you can overcome on your own.

I haven't cut in ages and I won't lie, I still want to. But it gets to a point when you just either a) can't be bothered to cut. b) cutting seems strange and unnatural. c) you want to keep going with your no-cutting streak.

And for many, not cutting is like taking off another huge lump of luggage off your shoulders. You may still be carrying tons of other stuff. But one less bag to carry makes a big difference.

One day, hour or minute at a time. The present is a fresh start.