Feel like sh*t for no reason

[Dark_Desires]

So tonight i went out had a great time got home and now i feel deppresed more than usual.I felt sick to told my mum and also said i felt miserable and she didnt care.I keep going from happy to sad to wanting to die.Past weeks i have thought about my old plan to kill myself.And also about cutting its always on my mind.I was ment to ring chams to speak to some duty officer couldnt even do that why am i such a fuck up.I just seem to be unhappyer each time i get like this.Now that i right this i realise how stupid it is to right this since i am just a fuck up that needs to deal with things.Well this is some boring rant that no one will read sigh.

[CuriousDestruction]

-hugs- Any living parent that does not love their child is a shitty parent in my opinion. The fact that she didn't care is awful. But please don't let that be a reason to hurt yourself. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And cutting doesn't help that. We all make mistakes. We all fuck up sometimes. Doesn't make you a permanent fuck up though. Some things may need to change, maybe one of the first is to stop thinking of yourself as a fuck up and start thinking of yourself as a human being who makes mistakes but can change. You are a beautiful human being. Nothing more nothing less.

[Steve Jobs]

Exactly what he said above. It's alright to feel let down and sometimes we feel like it's growing out of our control. Remember these moods come and go and sometimes you need to ride through it before you learn what doesn't kill you will make you stronger. Hold on to every bit of hope you've got and believe things will change. Act like things will change, it's temporary. You're throwing every one of your ambitions, dreams and goals away from suicide and you're letting a little fit get in the way of all of that?
If you've done something wrong, or feel that you have, remember there's always redemption. I don't mean sucking up to everything around you, but this could be a lesson you can learn and a change you can make.
Force yourself to have a different outlook on life tomorrow and enjoy everything that comes in your way. Maybe you'll see more to all the little shits in life.