Relapse

[Madnessandmania]

A couple of years ago when I just became a teen I suffered badly with bulimia. I wouldn't eat for day and then I would gorge on so much food. Chocolate, pizza, crisps, the whole lot because I knew I could get it back up. I exercised alot.

I am now under a pysch and he is keeping an eye on me. I was IP for quite some time last year (not for an ED) but I've stopped eating again and exercising like mad. My pysch did say if I made myself sick again he would send my back to IP and I don't want to end up there again. So yeah. I have been not eating really. Every second day I would eat something small, to keep my metabolism going but I always feel like shit after. :( They are obviously keeping an eye on it, which I find embarrassing because my weight has barely budged. I'm so lost. I feel so terrible even though I'm taking all my medication.
ARGH!
Why is life so hard? :(

[FranticMind]

Hey :)

Im sorry that you are relapsing, I know how terrible and frustrating bulimia can be. I do however think you are incredibly brave for asking for help with you ED, I know it can be hard, but it is best to work with your psych and mental health team so you can get better.

When you say you are scared of going IP again, I can completely empathise with this. And I know that it is hard, but maybe going IP or getting extra help can make things better?
You sound like you do want help and I believe that you completely deserve it. Things sound do sound so tough for you right now, and I hope you do get the help you need.

Just remember that you are so strong for posting and asking for help. I hope things improve for you soon

Take care x

[HandheldOutlaw]

Hey there,
I completely understand where you're coming from, and I've been there too. As FranticMind said, you do sound a lot like you really want to recover.
I wish I had some advice, but I wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you.
xx Please take care