just a rant. ignore me like everyone else.

[painful paradice]

so i just want to quit. everything seems pointless to me right now. my art is nonexistent same with my writing. not like it's any good anyways. i feel like my friends are tired of dealing with me. they understand how i hurt myself but it seems like i bore them lately. i just need to keep holding off and not hurting myself i know that and probably right now some better meds could help me out but really i don't see that happening any time soon. music isn't helping. listening to some of my favorite songs and the music channel at the same time (I am the emperor of multitasking.)
i have made it fifteen days without hurting myself, pales in comparison to the 21 weeks i once made. i just feel like everything's pointless right now.

[justlonelyhearts]

I relate to you so much, my life is at the point where I truly have no purpose for existing and I'll soon be 3 months clean but I just really can't see the point anymore but I am sure there will be a point in which it all turns around for me and for you :)

[georgiamay]

so i just want to quit. everything seems pointless to me right now. my art is nonexistent same with my writing. not like it's any good anyways. i feel like my friends are tired of dealing with me. they understand how i hurt myself but it seems like i bore them lately. i just need to keep holding off and not hurting myself i know that and probably right now some better meds could help me out but really i don't see that happening any time soon. music isn't helping. listening to some of my favorite songs and the music channel at the same time (I am the emperor of multitasking.)
i have made it fifteen days without hurting myself, pales in comparison to the 21 weeks i once made. i just feel like everything's pointless right now.

I feel like I'm in a similar situation right now. I'm hardly doing any work, and I know I should be, but I can't bring myself to do it because I feel like a total failure when it doesn't work out.

About your art and writing, does it help you cope? If so I think it's good to keep it up. Whether or not you think it's good or not, they're good and healthy ways of getting your emotions out. And if you're anything like me, I'd say you're being overly critical of yourself. The chances are it's better than you think. And even if it's not, sometimes we can try as hard as we can, and things don't work out the way we planned. It's hard to deal with it when it happens, because of all the hard work you put in, but you can't be good at everything. You just need to try again, or try something new. I'm still going to take a bit of an educated guess and say you're actually good at art and writing, you're just too critical of your own work. A lot of people are.

Your friends probably don't know what to do. You're not boring them, they probably just don't know what to say, they don't know how to help you. It's hard for people who don't self harm to understand why, and they hardly ever know how to help. Friends care about each other, as much as you think they don't, if they're real friends, they'll care about you. They just don't know to help you, maybe they feel out of their depth? It's nothing for you to be ashamed of, just maybe try and talk to a friend about it and try and get them to understand what you're going through, and maybe tell them how they can help?

The brain can't handle listening to 2 songs at once, it's physically impossible. I think it'd be better to just focus on one song at a time (a happy one), rather than multitasking. Believe it or not, multitasking can actually be quite stressful. Just give it a try, focusing on one thing at a time instead of 2 or more, it might make things a little easier. If not, then at least you gave it a shot.

I know that feeling when everything seems pointless, but it's really not. You just need to hang in there until you pull through this :hug3:

[ShootingStar]

If you need to talk, let me know. It's a difficult situation to be in, but it is possible to escape eventually :)! Stay Strong...ShootingStar..x