Well I'm a failure...

[dreamer18xx]

So I went 4 whole months without cutting myself but now since it's Febuary I must've bruised over 3 times and cut myself over 5 times i have over 100 new scars which is great. I feel fantastic. -_- ive been considering suicide allot more recently life just feels so dull lately and I'm losing the desire for life. depression is a bit** and I have no clue what to do honestly to make it better when all it seems to be doing is get worse. sorry for my negativity Btw I'm just venting

[Desuetude]

Hey, first of all you are not a failure. 4 months without cutting is an amazing achievement and you should be so proud of yourself for getting that far. It's ok to relapse, you just have to pick yourself back up again. Think of all the reasons why you stopped in the first place and think about whether it's really worth it?

With the suiside i urge you to talk to someone about what you're feeling.
At the bottom of this page there are call help lines and maybe just read through (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showpost.php?p=868509&postcount=1) Think about everything you'd be leaving behind and the people who would be hurting at your loss.
Im sorry, this wasn't very helpful >< just know that we are all here for you if you ever feel like talking.

[ShootingStar]

If you need to talk, let me know :). Suicide is never an option-you can an will get better, you jus need to talk to someone! ..ShootingStar..x

[LucasRobert0897]

Think about who you be upsetting by committing suicide, I could never do it. I wouldn't be there to protect her, or talk to him. Sometimes I end up thinking I live for others more than myself :)

[Breakeven]

4 months is amazing believe me
u just have to find something to keep ur mind off cutting and btw suicide is not the answer

[dreamer18xx]

Sorry I haven't been on lately to thank you guys :( but I have cut some more so no progress so far and I went to my psychologist a few days ago ( and i didn't mention the SH) and apparently I'm going to be admitted again if my new meds don't work. So I'm pretty stressed out.

[Jupiter]

Everyone falls sometimes. We just have to pick ourselves up.

If you stumble, make it part of your dance.