I don't know what happened...

[annihilate_me]

I don't know what happened but I was wide awake last night... It was like 1:30 am and I had this odd urge to cut myself. But when I got out my weapon, I couldn't push down hard enough to do it. I mean, something wouldn't let me cut myself... I don't know if it was my concious or not, but I couldn't do it, and I didn't but. I really want to, and i think I need to, but I couldn't do it... Has this happened to any of you...

[CryingEye666]

sometimes you're feelings will change fast
not with cutting , but for other things its happened
like, your emotions probably changed between from when you wanted to cut, to when you got your razor
it just changes *finger snaps* like that lol
good thing u didnt cut yourself though

[Φρανκομβριτ]

ive had that. It's your subcancious reconsidering. It's usually a good thing!!

[CryingEye666]

i knew there was a word for that! : subcancious reconsidering :
ahh i just couldnt figure it out lol

[Φρανκομβριτ]

haha yes! happy 300th post btw

[CryingEye666]

haha thanks
hmm there should be a new avatar for 300's lol ( sorry annihilate me - not to talk about other stuff in your post =/ )

[MoveAlong]

I agree with Rudi, that was a good thing! That actually shows some improvement. You might want to listen to that force or voice and take advantage of it so you can stop.

[star_face]

maybe it's you deciding your ready for change and your choosing to recover and get control of your life in a different way, and maybe reconcider the way your dealing with things :]

[I'm cool like spongebob]

Well I don't think what happened is a bad thing so I wouldn't worry about it.