starryniqht
February 18th, 2012, 05:46 PM
Last friday i relapsed, Ive reallly been trying to stop SH. There was alot of blood and i just felt horrible, So i went up to my mom and told her and showed her my arm... it was a really hard thing to do. She was really accepting and just want to make sure i take care of it so it heals well.. but she also wants me to see a therapist for my anxiety (a reason why i self harm).
The thing is that everytime she leaves me home alone before she leaves she says a RUDE remark that really hurts me like
oh don't make your arm any worse than it already is.
you gonna prick yourself with needles while im gone?
or i will say something like "what time is your party?" and she will say why are you planning to look for the razor blades i hid from you?
idk what to do!! what shes saying is really bothering me.
to be honest telling my mom made me not want to cut anymore, it made me realize alot. She thinks im still doing it!
Advice??
The thing is that everytime she leaves me home alone before she leaves she says a RUDE remark that really hurts me like
oh don't make your arm any worse than it already is.
you gonna prick yourself with needles while im gone?
or i will say something like "what time is your party?" and she will say why are you planning to look for the razor blades i hid from you?
idk what to do!! what shes saying is really bothering me.
to be honest telling my mom made me not want to cut anymore, it made me realize alot. She thinks im still doing it!
Advice??