My mum freaking knows.

[beebs]

My mum knows. About the cutting. I think. I fell asleep on the sofa last night. With short sleeves. And just a blanket over me. She most likely saw. And I heard her crying just now. Im home alone now, as her and my brother have just gone out.

Me and her are home together tonight. Just us. Im terrified. I am SURE she knows. I dont know what to do.

Someone please help me.

[KidImage]

Don't be scared, just explain to her what's going through your head. Don't let people criticize your thinking.

[Desuetude]

Ok, ok calm down first. Just take a few moments to breath and just think about this.

You don't definitly know that she knows, dont jusmp to conclusions so easily or you're just getting worked up for no reason at all. Don't say anything, don't act any differently and if she doesn't bring it up then great, lets assume that she doesn't know.

However if it does come up then just tell her. Tell her what you're feeling, evereything, it's better to get it all out in one go than to leave it a bit and come back to it. She can help you, she can support you through this, you don't need to be scared she's only there to find out whats wrong and to pick you back up when you're down.

[beebs]

I cant help it, ive been freaking out, im drinking all my mums alchohol. i dont care. i cant be asked to deal with the fact that she might know

[Desuetude]

Getting drunk isn't going to help, it will just make things worse.
The fact that she won't trust you if you do it will just make it harder when coming to explain everything to her, please just calm down, drinking isnt going to do you any favours at all.

[beebs]

Im sorry. its either this, or cutting. I dont want to cut, that will be even worse.

[FullyAlive]

You have a chance to prepare stop drinking and take it.

First think about what you might say, or write it down even.
Second arm yourself with information, print fact sheets, and help pages for her to read and try and get some basis of what you're going through.

Use this time to help prepare yourself properly for any confrontation if she does know so it can go in your favour.

And remember she might not know, act normal and see what happens.
:hug:

[beebs]

Fuck. Your right. Im an idiot.

[Desuetude]

Hey you're not an idiot, you're just upset.

Just think about what you're going to say and do what Louise said, prepare yourself for whatever might happen.

[beebs]

Thanks guys.

[neverhavebeen223]

Let us know how it goes. We're here for you.

[beebs]

She hasnt said anything at the moment. But she will probs defo know soon. My bestfriend is threatning to tell her unless i go cold turkey.-_-

[foreverautumn.]

^the fuck?

Anyway, don't worry. Once the dust has settled you'll be better off with your mum knwing anyway. Good luck

[TeddyBearRock]

Look, there is nothing to worry about. If she does know, she will be upset. if she askes you questions aanswer them, dont go off in a mood, or that will make her worst. But remember your her daughter and she cares about you, she will try and help you, so just let her. You never know she may help you to stop

If shes doesnt then try and be more carfull around the house. PM how it goes