numb cutting?

[neverhavebeen223]

Okay. So first, a bit about myself. I'm 15. Good in school, I read a lot, and write books. My parents are great, I am a troubled teen and have been cutting for... hm... 3 years, give or take a few months. I'm not an idiot, and have never touched my wrists in that way, except once I attempted suicide with that method. I would've died if my best friend hadn't found me and patched me up. She's been supportive through this process. I was clean for two months and relapsed yesterday. I can't say I have a hard life, but there are two reasons why I cut. 1. I love scars. Always have. Especially the ones I create myself. 2. I think blood is pretty. Yeah, fucked up. I know. Usually I take an x-acto(very sharp) and numb my skin with ice. I don't cut for the pain. I cut for the scars. Its normally designs or words. So basically, I wondered if anyone else loves their scars as much as I do.

Oh, and ps, I'm not seeking proffesional advice, or talking to my parents. I know what I'm doing, I chose this. I'm not some little emo kid trying to be mainstream.

[Zeh Crazy]

If you like making designs and words on your body, get tattoos. They can tell stories, too.

[neverhavebeen223]

If you like making designs and words on your body, get tattoos. They can tell stories, too.

I think I like the scars better, because they're
free. Lol. I've tried the whole butterfly thing, but I enjoyed killing the butterfly too much. I'll get tattoos when I'm old enough

[Mortal Coil]

I do that a lot.
Scars are more personal than tattoos, I find. And killing the butterflies gives me a kind of satisfaction (I usually do it while listening to the song "Wings of a Butterfly")
You're not the only one.

[neverhavebeen223]

I do that a lot.
Scars are more personal than tattoos, I find. And killing the butterflies gives me a kind of satisfaction (I usually do it while listening to the song "Wings of a Butterfly")
You're not the only one.

Thank god. I thought someone else had to do this. And yes, scars are way more personal. Who's the song by?

[Christheman]

If you have the need to cut and you cant resisit take it slow but don't try to kill yourself or else you cant make you scars anymore

[neverhavebeen223]

If you have the need to cut and you cant resisit take it slow but don't try to kill yourself or else you cant make you scars anymore

Quite obviously that's true. Wrist slitting is a painfully inaccurate way to kill yourself. I'd get a syringe, air bubble in the bloodstream, instant death.