I'm worried

[rootlesstree]

I really badly want to stop cutting for three reasons;
My mom wants to send me to the mental hosp. if she finds more cuts,
I don't want to leave scars because I honestly love going swimming, and last but not least, I don't want my boyfriend to start kissing my whole entire body like last time because he thinks every single cuts needs a kiss. It's semi-annoying, but cute, I just don't know.

I really really really really really want to cut. Like, I'm going to the extreme. I'm going to go buy hoodies and tomorrow while everybody is at school and work, I will cut and cut till I can't feel anything..

[love is louder]

you say you really want to stop and then in the next breath you say that you really want to cut.
im far from an expert on stopping but i have found that the only reason people successfully stop cutting is if it is what they want for themselves. although the reasons that you what to stop are valid none of your reasons are because you truly want to. you say you want to and i have no doubt you will make an effort but i dont think you can stop unless your positive in yourself that this is truly what you want.

i think you need to take a step back from your relationship and your family and think "do i really want to stop" and if the answers yes then people here can help you but if the answer is "well it will be easier for other people and i kind of want to make them happy" then your not ready.

im not trying to deter you from trying to stop because that would be the best thing. but i dont want to give you false hope.
good luck in whatever you decide.

[ShootingStar]

You need to WANT to stop cutting. If you don't, you have no chance of ever stopping...jus write your feelings down, an write all the reasons you want/need to stop :) Here if you want to talk! S.S..x