I don't know what to do...

[muffin with a knife]

I'm scared. I recently ( 3-4 weeks ago) tried to kill myself (again). As you can tell I didn't work. I'm really depressed (I've been like this for 4- 5 years now) and I know I'm going to try again. I tried to get help. I talked with the school counselor. She looked at me like I was crazy. My class teacher doesn't really help m. All she does is making me feel worthless. She told me every chance she got how I don't have any talent and how she can't understand how I managed to get in her class. It's not helping me at all.
I don't really want to kill myself at the moment. I haven't gone to school in 3 weeks and I think that calmed me. But I have to go tommorow and I'm anxious. I don't want to feel worthless again ( well I feel like that all the time, but in the past 2 weeks I felt a little better about myself).
I don't know what to do. I'm really scared because I know that as soon as I go to school everything is going to be worse than before and I'm going to hate myself more than I do now, I know I'm going to go to the pharmacy and I'll buy drugs so I can end it all.

[Mortal Coil]

Please don't do this. I've been in the same situation for about the same amount of time, and can tell you that just because a few assholes and idiots don't understand you doesn't mean that nobody does.
The fact that you posted here shows that there's something in you that really doesn't want to die. Listen to that part. Until you want to do this 100%, don't. It's a permanent thing. One moment you're a person. The next you're an object.
You're too much of a good person to commit suicide. I know you've tried before, but please don't try again.

[muffin with a knife]

evil.angel it's all so confusing. I feel like I will crack under the pressure. Everyone expects me to deal with every problem and I can't do it anymore. A part of me doesn't want to try again and i'm really trying to hold on to that part but I don't know how long will I be able to do it.
I just want the pain and hate to go away. I think I might need help.

[Desuetude]

People shouldn't expect so much, it's not fair on you. I know the feeling of people having high expectations and its horrible. just do your best, its all you can do.
School will be hard, if it's causing you so much pain then yes I think you need to get some help. Maybe go to a professional instead of school, they'd be a lot more understanding. Or a therapist? But I do honestly believe you need someone to get you through this.

[TeddyBearRock]

When you feel like that, this may not help but. Think about how you friends and family will feel if you did kill yourself. I'm sure all your friends here would miss you. And your teacher dont listen to her, its not like your going to keep in contact when you leave school.

[Borxar]

I'm sorry that your school is not being supportive, but use your talents and continue to do them and people mightnt see the talents but its ok cause you know you can do it! You are a valuable individual with or without other people's blessings. Dont devalue yourself because of what they say, because they are wrong. I know its hard, but stay strong and remember you are capable of great things :)