I Just Realised.

[Auzzie 94]

I don't care if this is in the right section or not, as you can tell I'm in abit of a mood, so if I am mean towards anyone don't take it personally.

Basically I realised that there is no real reason to live. I just feel completely fucked. I feel drained mentally, I am getting pissed off very easily lately and I just feel like there is no point living, because seriously there's not. Why should I live? I've asked myself that question and in my head I cannot think of an answer.... I don't call ''living'' life living.. I call it surviving... we have to survive and work day in day out just for stupid fucking money that can't buy us happiness. We struggle just to pay the fucking bills.... we are nice to people but we don't get treated right back. I'm just sick of everything lately and I'm really starting to think I'd be better off dead. Life's a bitch and then you die... what's the point of living? I think I should just skip the ''living'' so life can't be a bitch and then I should skip straight to the dying part.

[Dimitri]

Here (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=103479), here is why I live....

[Dimentio]

Nik like i told you last night, You have your brother to live for and though i have known you little if you did something to yourself i would be so sad and feel empty on the inside, A friends a friend.
I you did something to yourself think of your brother, He said he wanted to live with you so you should forfill his wishes as you have been doing so! I know your a great brother and friend and those around you would be so sad if something were to happen!

[Mortal Coil]

I feel exactly the same way. I'm not sure what's stopping me from killing myself.
I'm not scared of dying
I don't have to worry about dying a virgin (some black humor there that you, Nik will understand)
I don't have a good future- no steady job in sight
Nobody would miss me
You're the one who told ME not to be suicidal... now I guess you see where I'm coming from. I didn't do it. You kill yourself and I will hate you forever.

... I don't know, I guess I was just hoping I could try and make life less of a bitch for you. I see I failed you, just like I failed everyone else :cry:

[Desuetude]

You're the one who told ME not to be suicidal... now I guess you see where I'm coming from. I didn't do it. You kill yourself and I will hate you forever.

... I don't know, I guess I was just hoping I could try and make life less of a bitch for you. I see I failed you, just like I failed everyone else :cry:

I hate hypocrites when it comes to things lie this, Alex we would miss you, you dont fail people they have their own mind and it's very hard to influence them.


Nik there are lots of reasons to live you may just be to down to appreciate and understand them all. Activities you enjoy, family, friends, tiny things that make you smile even if only for a second.
Yes life's a bitch but with suicide being the easy way out you just have to make the best of it. It won't be perfect so don't expect a lot but just try and stay positive and you can get through this.
We are all in the same boat, remember that youre not alone.

[Auzzie 94]

Nik like i told you last night, You have your brother to live for and though i have known you little if you did something to yourself i would be so sad and feel empty on the inside, A friends a friend.
I you did something to yourself think of your brother, He said he wanted to live with you so you should forfill his wishes as you have been doing so! I know your a great brother and friend and those around you would be so sad if something were to happen!

In the end everyone dies so why does it matter if I die in 70 years or 70 days? Either way my brother, family and friends will feel the pain when I die and will all be sad, dying is a part of life so who gives a shit when it happens? I don't.


I feel exactly the same way. I'm not sure what's stopping me from killing myself.
I'm not scared of dying
I don't have to worry about dying a virgin (some black humor there that you, Nik will understand)
I don't have a good future- no steady job in sight
Nobody would miss me
You're the one who told ME not to be suicidal... now I guess you see where I'm coming from. I didn't do it. You kill yourself and I will hate you forever.

... I don't know, I guess I was just hoping I could try and make life less of a bitch for you. I see I failed you, just like I failed everyone else :cry:

I also have no damn idea why I haven't killed myself yet, I'm not afraid of death or whatever happens in the "afterlife", I just don't know why I haven't tried to kill myself as of yet... I have a steady job but I am sick of working. People would still miss me but who cares, in the end we all die so why don't I kill myself now. I'm in the same boat as you now (I feel depressed and suicidal and I have no fucking idea why!), life hasn't been that much of a bitch to me but in the future it will be... fuck starting a family.. why would I bring a precious child into this fucked up world? And fuck having a family because getting a girlfriend is hard enough, all the decent girls are taken or are to blind to realise that they have someone who loves them right infront of their fucking face! You didn't fail me, if anything you make me smile all the time, whenever I talk to you, whenever I get a message from you my world instantly lights up. I just don't know why I feel like this..



Nik there are lots of reasons to live you may just be to down to appreciate and understand them all. Activities you enjoy, family, friends, tiny things that make you smile even if only for a second.
Yes life's a bitch but with suicide being the easy way out you just have to make the best of it. It won't be perfect so don't expect a lot but just try and stay positive and you can get through this.
We are all in the same boat, remember that youre not alone.

What good is living when in the end EVERYONE YOU KNOW dies, including yourself... all the people you love just end up going.. they just disappear and leave your life, all you have left is photos and memories. Why would I waste my time living till old age or until my time comes when I could just end it now and not waste more years of my life? I expect nothing near perfect in life, I realised no matter how many friends you have, no matter how many parties you go to, no matter how much money you have and no matter how much sex you have, life isn't worth any of it. Fuck it.

[Breakeven]

why u should live?
1- life is BEAUTIFUL , not matter how fuked up and not fair and all the bad things happen in it
2- the world needs you and u will do some great things in this world
3- all the people around u who cares will feel fuked up if u die
4- for the sake of yourself dont do it
5-things will change , give it a time
6- what doesn't kill u make u stronger , ur stronger then this
7- u dont know whats after death , it might be worse and LONELY
8- death is not the answer
so plzzzzzzzzzz dont do it , believe me its not worth it!

[xDarkAngelx]

I also feel almost exactly the same, unsure why I haven't already killed myself...even have notes just about finished. I still haven't found any reason as to stay, we will all die eventually.

[Desuetude]

What good is living when in the end EVERYONE YOU KNOW dies, including yourself... all the people you love just end up going.. they just disappear and leave your life, all you have left is photos and memories. Why would I waste my time living till old age or until my time comes when I could just end it now and not waste more years of my life? I expect nothing near perfect in life, I realised no matter how many friends you have, no matter how many parties you go to, no matter how much money you have and no matter how much sex you have, life isn't worth any of it. Fuck it.

Thats why we make the most of it whilst we're here, we will all be gone yes but those photos and memories are there life. People forget things but objects can stay with you forever, they tell teh story of that persons life.
You're not wasting time (maybe when you're playing on xbox and watching the football you are :P) but you do good things in life. Nik you're such a good person you just have to stay posotive and just do your best. Yes no ones life is perfect but what is perfection? There is no defenition, so make one. Life is worth it what would there be otherwise? nothing.
Have you ever thought about what there would be if the world wasnt here? i can spend hours just thinking about what else there is. And after all those hours there is still nothing. We make everything, life is so worth it, yes often we get thown challenges, some very unfair but you just have to move on, its all you can do.
If you ended your life now there would be so much that you would be missing (the olympics hosted in london being one of them :)) Its not worth the pain. Yes you would be gone, free from all of this from pain, dissapointment but also happiness, amazement, excitement. You would never feel anything again. Your family, your little brother although he can be a pain he loves you, he wanted to be with you more than his own parents, now that is something you should be very proud of. He looks up to you and see's someone great, someone worth learning from. Do this for him, try not to think those thoughts, lifes to short.
Im here if you ever need to talk :)<3

[XxfakexX]

It seems hypocritical for me to say this but you shouldn't want to die. It's a valid point saying everyone dies in the end but shouldn't that give you a reason to see them to the end, if not for yourself, but for people you love? Damn that sounds superficial but you know what i mean. I won't quote all the stereo typical crap because in the end you need to find a way to get past everything because from what i can see, if you haven't killed yourself, then your already looking for a way out. :) Hope this help a little and if you do need to talk or are having a hard time, everyones here to help.

[ReasonsForWeeping]

i might not be sad or depressed but i still want to die every time i try to kill myself something gets in the way last time i tried to hang myself my mom walks into my room the time before that i took 5 bottles of pills one of them saved my life and my step dad called an ambulance the only reason was b/c that pill if you took to much of it makes you have violent sleep walking its just something always happens its rotten luck i dont have anything i want to live for why do i even bother living