zoso
February 12th, 2012, 08:34 PM
(First post in a forum...let's see how this goes...) :|
I had been very good friends with a girl for about five years...all the time people would reference how we’d be ideal...etc, etc., etc. mushy bulls**t. Finally, I decided that I would tell her I like her. We were together and it was probably one of the greatest experiences of my life (still in-progress). That summer was awesome. Hell, we kissed. (First time.) And it wasn’t one of those “for-the-sake-of doing-it.” Not in my eyes. But after that, I said something that was perceived in a whole different way. By the time I realized it, I was falling down with no way to hold myself up. My words killed the relationship. And I didn’t stop. Stupid of me.
We mutually ended the relationship...wait, here is the second-worst part....one day before her birthday. (Let the record reflect I still gave her a gift for that day and the following Christmas.) It was the most emotionally painful thing I’ve done to date. We’re still friends, but obviously not as close as before. More than one year later, I still argue with myself over this. She asked me at one point if I liked Girl X, in whom I have no interest. But I ask myself time and time again, “Do I tell her I still like her?; Hell, does this qualify as still ‘liking’ her?” And would she let it happen again when I hurt her when I never meant to? :help:
Thoughts?
I had been very good friends with a girl for about five years...all the time people would reference how we’d be ideal...etc, etc., etc. mushy bulls**t. Finally, I decided that I would tell her I like her. We were together and it was probably one of the greatest experiences of my life (still in-progress). That summer was awesome. Hell, we kissed. (First time.) And it wasn’t one of those “for-the-sake-of doing-it.” Not in my eyes. But after that, I said something that was perceived in a whole different way. By the time I realized it, I was falling down with no way to hold myself up. My words killed the relationship. And I didn’t stop. Stupid of me.
We mutually ended the relationship...wait, here is the second-worst part....one day before her birthday. (Let the record reflect I still gave her a gift for that day and the following Christmas.) It was the most emotionally painful thing I’ve done to date. We’re still friends, but obviously not as close as before. More than one year later, I still argue with myself over this. She asked me at one point if I liked Girl X, in whom I have no interest. But I ask myself time and time again, “Do I tell her I still like her?; Hell, does this qualify as still ‘liking’ her?” And would she let it happen again when I hurt her when I never meant to? :help:
Thoughts?