I can't hold on.....

[RakshaMalayka]

I'm so tired of this feeling, so tired of trying to hold on. I honestly know the only way for this to go away is death. My family is slowly killing me from the inside out and my love life is hurting me. I love both guys but there both hurt me. My brother is always saying exactly what you shouldn't say to someone who has ever selfharmed. It hurts top cry but I've been crying more and more lately. All I want to do is slit my wrists and bleed out. I don't see the point anymore and there is more bad in my life than good now. I don't think my friends are enough to keep me going anymore. People tell me I should see a counselor, but the only time I did do that child services were called. I'm just done with this emotional slaughter and I'm lost. I'm not crying for attention, never have, I've been screaming for help this whole time, but no one hears me.......

[anonymous53]

I know you've heard it a lot before, but you should tell an adult that will help you. Is there a way you can tell an adult that can help?


Maybe you should cut out the love life until you can handle your own emotions? You need to take care of yourself first... Honestly, being alone isn't as horrible as everyone says.


If you need to cry, CRY Seriously, it will help, better than bottling it up.

[RakshaMalayka]

I've tried talking to my mom about it before and she just told me to stop that I'm not that stupid. Every adult who found out told me to stop with the attention seeking. The only people who understood were a couple friends......

[Desuetude]

Then could the friends help? Talking to someone and getting your feelings out there is better than keeping it all and waiting for it to explode.

[RakshaMalayka]

I just hate laying my problems out on them all the time. My best friend is really understanding when it comes to this but shes finally happy again. I might have to talk to her though because I think I need to.....

[anonymous53]

Well, since your mother thinks you're just attention seeking, you would probably be better off going to the school counselor, that way she might just understand something is really wrong.

[RakshaMalayka]

Like I said last time I did that she called child services....

[anonymous53]

Ah... *Thinking*

What all is happening at the house that she'd call child services?

[RakshaMalayka]

I have family problems and a history with my stepdad when hes drunk......

[anonymous53]

Ah... How bad is it? Do you think you're in danger just staying there?

[RakshaMalayka]

No, I can handle myself

[Breakeven]

death is not the answer
plzzzzzzzzzzz HOLD ON! things will change it just takes time