judgeofsin
February 11th, 2012, 12:36 AM
Ok well here's the deal. I love this girl I've known for almost four years. She's had multiple boyfriends over this time span and I've been with her throughout all of these relationships. I've loved her the whole time. This isn't the type of love where you're not going to stop trying to date this person. I stopped trying that a long time ago. The way I love her is different from any other definition of love. I would do absolutely anything for her, no matter what it was. I do anything and everything I can each and everyday to make her happy. Even though I do all of these things, I don't have an urge to date her at all, and I have no problems at all with her dating other people. I'm always happy that she's happy and I support her through everything. Now... This is the part where I get confused. A year ago, one of the people she dated was one of our friends. He was one of my best friends. I didn't understand it then, and I still don't understand it to this day, but whenever I would see them together, I wouldn't be able to look at the two of them. If I tried looking for to long, I would start to tear up and if I didn't look away, I would end up crying. My body would hurt all over and my heart would feel heavy, as if it was sinking deeper into my chest. This would happen every time I saw them together. I would literally go out of my way to completely avoid them for the whole day. I have no idea why I felt that way when I NEVER get jealous. And now, one year later this whole thing is repeating itself. As a complete surprise to me, it turns out that she is dating another one of my best friends. As soon as I heard this news, all the previous feelings returned, except this time, they felt even worse. It's gotten to the point where I don't even have the slightest urge to speak with them anymore. Will someone please tell me what's wrong with me? At the very moment I'm writing this, I feel like crying. :( Can someone tell me what's going on?