insanity
February 10th, 2012, 04:43 PM
Once again im stuck.
I actually dont know how to explain this very well at all so just bare with me while I try..
I was going out with this guy, right. He wasnt the sort of guy I would normally go out with, he was all amazing looking popular guy sort of, yah know the kind that always knows the right things to say and do and yeah.. but he was also known for being a jerk and treating girls like crap.. But yeah he told me he was ready for a proper reletionship know and all that crap and I believed him of course.
He was always really nice to me, I really cant complain. I lost pretty much everything to him. And he said he loved me and yeah. A week or so later he broke up with me, he was so nice about it and I wasnt even that upset cause I knew it wouldnt work out and all.
so its almost a month later and he still txts me, and we still talk alot. The problem is is he is hinting at this friends with benifits thing and always acts like we are still together. Its hard cause im not good at getting over people, so I still like him so I go along with it all.
Yeah idk, Im still not explaining this very well..... when we were going out he always used to be 'busy' so we didnt see eachother much, he used to say he was busy on the farm and stuff, he is still like that kinda.
When ever I see him he never just wants to hang out he just wants to do stuff, for him its all based around sex. I cant handel it I just wanted a proper releationship where someone would care about me not half one with a guy who I now realise Ive never had a convosation with that doesnt revolve around sex. Its hard cause I want to move on and find someone and be happybut I keep on getting pulled back to him and I just feel like an accsesorry that he uses when he feels like it, . But he still acts like it and blahhh idk this has turned into a rant, I would just delete this now but I might as well let it out. so yeah, sorry if I wasted your time.
but I also want to stick with him, I kid myself into thinking I can see through it and we will end up together again in a perfect reletionship </3
I actually dont know how to explain this very well at all so just bare with me while I try..
I was going out with this guy, right. He wasnt the sort of guy I would normally go out with, he was all amazing looking popular guy sort of, yah know the kind that always knows the right things to say and do and yeah.. but he was also known for being a jerk and treating girls like crap.. But yeah he told me he was ready for a proper reletionship know and all that crap and I believed him of course.
He was always really nice to me, I really cant complain. I lost pretty much everything to him. And he said he loved me and yeah. A week or so later he broke up with me, he was so nice about it and I wasnt even that upset cause I knew it wouldnt work out and all.
so its almost a month later and he still txts me, and we still talk alot. The problem is is he is hinting at this friends with benifits thing and always acts like we are still together. Its hard cause im not good at getting over people, so I still like him so I go along with it all.
Yeah idk, Im still not explaining this very well..... when we were going out he always used to be 'busy' so we didnt see eachother much, he used to say he was busy on the farm and stuff, he is still like that kinda.
When ever I see him he never just wants to hang out he just wants to do stuff, for him its all based around sex. I cant handel it I just wanted a proper releationship where someone would care about me not half one with a guy who I now realise Ive never had a convosation with that doesnt revolve around sex. Its hard cause I want to move on and find someone and be happybut I keep on getting pulled back to him and I just feel like an accsesorry that he uses when he feels like it, . But he still acts like it and blahhh idk this has turned into a rant, I would just delete this now but I might as well let it out. so yeah, sorry if I wasted your time.
but I also want to stick with him, I kid myself into thinking I can see through it and we will end up together again in a perfect reletionship </3