Help with covering how i feel.

[Dimentio]

Well i love this guy like a ridiculose amount, It is literally killing me, Like i am no longer eating or sleeping i want him that bad! And he has not been in the past 2 days and on them two days everyone has noticed i got an attitude issue, I did no work and i jsut sat there all droopy eyed and depressed and not eating again.
I constantly asked if anyone knew where he was and he finally added me on FB and i keep BEGGING him to come in! So he finally did today and all i could do was be with him and tell him "When your not here i am so sad!" "If we are in the same class but seperated i don't do work." "When you not in the days last so long and were so boring and such torcher!" But he was also saying stuff back hinting he missed me and he likes to be with me more then other people.
But as much as i want it to happen right now, I don't.
So is there a way to hide i am gay and have feelings for him? I used to be so good at it but what i did before, Like it jsut isn't working and it is so clear i love him! Even my family mainly my mum has caught onto it i think.

[Sosaku]

First things first, Don't worry about hiding anything, until you are sleeping and eating again...i went through the same thing, i didn't sleep for about 9 nights, one more, and i wouldn't be here... FOr about 3 of those days, i didn't eat... Friends were threatening to shove melatonin down my throat, just so i could sleep...

Then after that, don't pretend, don't hide...be who you are, if you miss him, you miss him, hiding that, is only going to make the days he is around feel like hte days he's gone, and the days he's gone, you're going to be MUCH more irritable...

If people ask why you miss him, tell them you consider him a great friend... You can lie, and don't say you can't, because if you're willing to hide who you are, (that is, lie to yourself to a point) you can lie to other people...