what i did and what should i do?

[Ravenous1]

Im not sure what to do.
I cut myself last night. My friend Ashley asks me if i cut, she doesnt want me cutting and i cant face her knowing i cut because i dont want to let her down or disappoint her. My mom is starting to supect something cuz ive been wearing long sleeves alot. I've had some close calls with the cutting.
During school i was hit with a feeling of extreme loniness and fear. I feel terriblely alone and afraid. I felt like i had no friends or support just completely alone i just wanted to curl up into a ball and cry. I didnt do that cuz i was at lunch and with friends. I dont want that feeling to happen again. I feel it happening as i type this.
I want help on what to do before i do something stupid

[Breakeven]

stop cutting or at least try ..about ur friends , r they really ur friends if u cant even tell them whats going on with u? a true friend will always be there for u no matter what
i know that feeling , believe me!

[Ravenous1]

Viv, i dont really have a choice on the cutting. I'm forced to cut by the voices in my head. If i dont they put me through hell and will try to get me to kill myself. Id rather cut than go through that hell.

[Darkness.]

I really think you need to tell someone so you can get the help you need. If you have a school nurse talk to them because they will try to help you as best they can.

If you don't tell someone then it will only get worse and you might end up killing yourself and nobody wants that.

[Mortal Coil]

I get the same feeling as you do sometimes, often multiple times a day. I'm just in class, or listening to music, and it's like a huge wave of all the bullshit that's happened to you just kind of crashes on you and you have to fight the tears.
I'm sorry you have to deal with this, and do think that you should find friends who can accept you as a cutter, since like you said, you don't really have a choice.

[Ravenous1]

My friend ashley is an ex-cutter so she knows what im going through. i wont tell anyone because i dont want to worry my friends or family. out of all my friends, ashley is the only one that knows, she also knows about most of whats wrong with me. my parents worry enough as it is, i dont want to add to their worries. and i dont want to be committed or get dragged to a psychiatrist they creep me out and i dont trust people i dont know.