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FullyAlive
February 3rd, 2012, 02:58 PM
Not sure why I know this but the 9th of February 2010 was when I first cut myself. It'll be two years soon, two years and I've never stopped longer than two months without cutting, and i've never not harmed. I don't know I never saw it ending up like this, I wish I could go back and make myself stop. I regret it all so so much. In two years I've cut and i've burnt and I've overdosed. I've had the school called on me and the police. I just wish this had never happened, I look at my friends and I envy them the simple things. The way they sit around in the common room in short sleeves, they take tablets without flinching, their parents let them have their own fucking scissors.

I'm just so so sick of this, my life isn't like I planned and i've no idea how to get it back on track. I just want to be normal. I want to be unscarred. I don't want depression. I want to be happy.

/pointless rant.
xXl0sth0peXx
February 3rd, 2012, 03:11 PM
Not sure why I know this but the 9th of February 2010 was when I first cut myself. It'll be two years soon, two years and I've never stopped longer than two months without cutting, and i've never not harmed. I don't know I never saw it ending up like this, I wish I could go back and make myself stop. I regret it all so so much. In two years I've cut and i've burnt and I've overdosed. I've had the school called on me and the police. I just wish this had never happened, I look at my friends and I envy them the simple things. The way they sit around in the common room in short sleeves, they take tablets without flinching, their parents let them have their own fucking scissors.

I'm just so so sick of this, my life isn't like I planned and i've no idea how to get it back on track. I just want to be normal. I want to be unscarred. I don't want depression. I want to be happy.

/pointless rant.

I wish I actually had something good to say, but I don't really. Except I know how you feel, and I agree with you. I regret it, and I also envy people. I see what my life could be like if it wasn't for one stupid thing.. and I hate it.

I'm glad I'm not alone with these feelings, though. :hug:

I'm here if you ever need someone. <3