dark_soul777
February 1st, 2012, 10:45 PM
School went back today, and it turned out even worse than I'd expected.
On the way in, my headphones stopped working, and as I use music to calm myself down I started freaking out.
It ended up I couldn't even go and my mother got really pissed off with me as she doesn't understand how much I need music.
So, on what is meant to be my first day of year 10, I'm sitting at home with no idea where any of my classes are or even where the hell I'm supposed to go. I doubt I'll go tomorrow because of this, and everything will be the same as last year.
I'm doing several VCE subjects a year ahead so I really need to study hard, yet I can't even attend.
Through the holidays my depression backed of a bit but at the first mention of school, it was all back. I just can't stand the thought of another 3 years in this hell hole, I can't just drop out as I want top go to university and I can't change schools because the only other one in the area is catholic. I could never but up with this, plus I would have to replace one of my VCE subjects with compulsory religious studies.
I'm not seeing my therapist any more and my parents seem to think
I'm fine, the truth is I've just developed a better happy face and I'm spending more time alone in my room.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I have no friends, I can't stand my school and I just want out.
On the way in, my headphones stopped working, and as I use music to calm myself down I started freaking out.
It ended up I couldn't even go and my mother got really pissed off with me as she doesn't understand how much I need music.
So, on what is meant to be my first day of year 10, I'm sitting at home with no idea where any of my classes are or even where the hell I'm supposed to go. I doubt I'll go tomorrow because of this, and everything will be the same as last year.
I'm doing several VCE subjects a year ahead so I really need to study hard, yet I can't even attend.
Through the holidays my depression backed of a bit but at the first mention of school, it was all back. I just can't stand the thought of another 3 years in this hell hole, I can't just drop out as I want top go to university and I can't change schools because the only other one in the area is catholic. I could never but up with this, plus I would have to replace one of my VCE subjects with compulsory religious studies.
I'm not seeing my therapist any more and my parents seem to think
I'm fine, the truth is I've just developed a better happy face and I'm spending more time alone in my room.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I have no friends, I can't stand my school and I just want out.