whats depressing me today?

[dead kitty]

well see whats depressing me today is myself......i sorta have relationship problems...ive had many relationships but none of them were the real thing they al used me for something...and when it was the real thing like when they actually truly liked me i would screw it up or not want it......today i watched my bestfriend be happy with her "boyfriend" i guess u could call him and i got so jealous i wish i had that it seems as if there actually inlove it killed me cuzz all of my friends get guys and i dont i dot see anything wrong with me i mean im no were near perfect but still......its just i feel like no one is capable of loving me...its ass if its impossible even when someone tells me they do i dont believe them because im so use to it being a lie in the end it always has been....and yeah i know one day the "one" will come around but i dont want to wate for that one day i wanna enjoy my tenage life before its gone soooo what should i do?

[Princess Ariel]

Enjoy your teenage life to the best you can. "The one" will come at the right time. The relationships you have in your high school years don't necessarily mean they are "The One".
Patience is golden. You have friends that will wait with you.
If you want a boyfriend then YOU get up and chance it, YOU ask the guy out.
People are capable of loving you, you just have to let them in to your life. Don't push them away or off to the side.
Only you can change your life to your advantage.

[Mortal Coil]

I know how hard it can be to open yourself up to people, and how it's almost equally hard to keep pushing them away. What I did was learn to pretend like I don't care. If you start to feel bad again because of your relationship problems, go for a run, punch the shit out of a punching bag at a gym or a martial arts partner, just do something physical and angry (don't start cutting though. That's what I did. If you already cut, I'm not going to condone it, but...)
A huge part of enjoying teenage life is having a boyfriend, but a huge part of it is not. Instead of looking for "the one," look for a boy who is going to like you for who you are, whose company you enjoy and who you don't feel uncomfortable with. you may end up with a nerd, but they do make great boyfriends.
NB that last part is not from personal experience. At least you have had boyfriends, I've NEVER been in a proper relationship.

[dead kitty]

thanx you 2 :) thats really helpful

[Princess Ariel]

:hug: You know where I am if you ever need me.