Princess Ariel
January 30th, 2012, 06:06 PM
I can feel it crumbling around me. I don't want to be here any more. Everything has been going down hill lately. What did I do to deserve this pain? That I can't even fake a smile to those around me.
I come home, and I just break down.
In my tears. In my pain.
Every tiny thing has been setting me off even if it's just the way this world is.
Thing is. I don't want to be here any more. I have nothing to live for.
I'm never accepted anywhere I go, I get looked at like a freak since my hair is multicoloured. They think i'm just an attention seeker. But i'm far from it. I'm horrified with anyone getting too close to me. I don't want that. The farther i'm away from people. The better.
I'm not eating anything, the only time I eat is when i'm eating with mom, when it's not an option. But If I could go without ever eating again. I wouldn't care.
Quite frankly i'm done.
I never cry in school, but earlier today I was out of control. In an hysterical cry.
Why is it like this?
Why does it seem everyone around me is happy, and theirs me, slowly dying inside.
I don't even want to go to school any more, which is a shame becasue I was actually looking forward to my courses for next year.
But now, I couldn't even care less.
I come home, and I just break down.
In my tears. In my pain.
Every tiny thing has been setting me off even if it's just the way this world is.
Thing is. I don't want to be here any more. I have nothing to live for.
I'm never accepted anywhere I go, I get looked at like a freak since my hair is multicoloured. They think i'm just an attention seeker. But i'm far from it. I'm horrified with anyone getting too close to me. I don't want that. The farther i'm away from people. The better.
I'm not eating anything, the only time I eat is when i'm eating with mom, when it's not an option. But If I could go without ever eating again. I wouldn't care.
Quite frankly i'm done.
I never cry in school, but earlier today I was out of control. In an hysterical cry.
Why is it like this?
Why does it seem everyone around me is happy, and theirs me, slowly dying inside.
I don't even want to go to school any more, which is a shame becasue I was actually looking forward to my courses for next year.
But now, I couldn't even care less.