Somethings wrong

[XxfakexX]

I'm not sure what's happening. I'v being missing a lot of school recently to do with seeing thing and not telling the difference between what real and fake. My anxiety has been really bad which has led to me cutting frequently and not eating. I guess what I'm saying is my head of year at school rang home today when i was ill (asking if my parents were in, which they weren't). I don't know what he's going to say to my mum, as i don't want her finding out how bad i'v really been. I'm panicking and really scared does anyone have an idea what he might be talking to her about? Please i don't know what to do anymore.

[CJM123]

you need to give them a good reason why you have missed school. And you should watch TV and try and get your mind off your head of year phoning the house. Things will be fine and theres nothing to worry about, and please! don't cut yourself :(

[XxfakexX]

I have a reason i'm off school, like along with the hallucinations, i'v also had problems with feinting and panic attacks in the past. I just have no idea what he's phoning about and if he knows anything i'm going to have to see a doctor. I can't go there again but i don't know what else he'd want to talk about.
Also thanks, i'm trying not to cut but thing have been bad recently

[Desuetude]

Are you seeing anyone about your anxiety? Talking to people may help and if not then at least they will be able to find you help should you need it.
If your head of year called the worst thing you can do at the moment is worry, it will just make everything worse and you don't need that. Just like above do things to take your mind of it, especially cutting, you dont need to, you're stronger than that. Maybe go for a walk or do something you enjoy, reading or listen to music?
He probably just wants to talk about why you arn't coming into school, just be honest and tell the truth, tell them as much as you can and it will be a lot better than lying, i promise. If you have been getting worse then your mum needs to know, i mean its not fair you keeping your mum in the dark when you are getting so bad. is it to stop it from hurting her? because if so i think it might hurt her more if she found out you kept it from her.
Just keep calm and know that things probably arn't as bad as you make them seem. Your are probably just syking yourself out way to much and its not necessary. :)

[XxfakexX]

He told my mum about me cutting. She just came home and asked me to roll my sleeves up. I feel horrible because she's sat downstairs crying phoning the doctors. All she could say to me was sorry she never understood all the hints i gave and for all the pressure. It's not her fault and i'm trying to tell her that.

[Desuetude]

He told my mum about me cutting. She just came home and asked me to roll my sleeves up. I feel horrible because she's sat downstairs crying phoning the doctors. All she could say to me was sorry she never understood all the hints i gave and for all the pressure. It's not her fault and i'm trying to tell her that.

Im really sorry but maybe her knowing is the best thing, she can get you help now, support you through this. The best you can do is try and assure her that it was not her fault and let her know that she has been a good mother. You have to be there for her just like the is going to be there for you, it can't be easy for her to see you go through this.
Just know that you are not alone anymore and don't need to keep it all to yourself