Why bother..

[xXl0sth0peXx]

i don't even know anymore. i don't know why i even bother writing this..

i'm so fucking sick of it all. it's all a big fucking joke. why bother anymore. i have absolutely no reason to live. fucking almost everyone hates me, and the few people who don't eventually will because i'm so god damm stupid. i''m so fucking sick of it. people fucking lying, getting into my shit, and then fucking going behind my back. i'm fucking sick of people being so high about me. WHY. what the fuck is so hard to understand about the 4 words "I'm not worth it".. It's obvious that I'm not so why bother. i'm sick of never being good enough for anyone. it's always 'i'm the bad child' so i don't get anything, and my brother gets fucking whatever he wants. i'm sick of being bashed. i'm ugly. i'm fat. i'm stupid. i'm a failure. i'm so fucking sick of it. i'm sick of being betrayed and back stabbed. i'm sick of people lying to me.. pretending to like me and then fucking slapping me. i don't' fucking belong in this world anymore. i don't wanna go on. i wanna fucking go do something stupid and be done with it all. there's no reason to go on. it's all a fail any ways.. there's no fucking reason to get up everyday.. there's no reason to smile. all that happens is i don't eat and cut more and get sicker and sicker and worse and worse and fuck up peoples lives more. everyone fucking gets sick of me and i end up being a burden on them.. i don't even know why i'm still here. it's pointless to go on. i just wanna die..

[trooneh]

i don't even know anymore. i don't know why i even bother writing this..

i'm so fucking sick of it all. it's all a big fucking joke. why bother anymore. i have absolutely no reason to live. fucking almost everyone hates me, and the few people who don't eventually will because i'm so god damm stupid. i''m so fucking sick of it. people fucking lying, getting into my shit, and then fucking going behind my back. i'm fucking sick of people being so high about me. WHY. what the fuck is so hard to understand about the 4 words "I'm not worth it".. It's obvious that I'm not so why bother. i'm sick of never being good enough for anyone. it's always 'i'm the bad child' so i don't get anything, and my brother gets fucking whatever he wants. i'm sick of being bashed. i'm ugly. i'm fat. i'm stupid. i'm a failure. i'm so fucking sick of it. i'm sick of being betrayed and back stabbed. i'm sick of people lying to me.. pretending to like me and then fucking slapping me. i don't' fucking belong in this world anymore. i don't wanna go on. i wanna fucking go do something stupid and be done with it all. there's no reason to go on. it's all a fail any ways.. there's no fucking reason to get up everyday.. there's no reason to smile. all that happens is i don't eat and cut more and get sicker and sicker and worse and worse and fuck up peoples lives more. everyone fucking gets sick of me and i end up being a burden on them.. i don't even know why i'm still here. it's pointless to go on. i just wanna die..

Val, you're very much worth it for me. You know that from the countless number of conversations we've had. I have no clue about the specifics in your post, but I can tell you that the people that consider you ugly, or fat, or a failure, or stupid, are all wrong. Plain and simple.

You aren't a burden on us, Val. Also, the fact that you're nervous about becoming a burden means that you are far from a failure. A failure wouldn't worry about the feelings of those trying to help them.

I've promised you already, and I'm making this in public, I will NOT hate you, ever. You will always be my friend. I don't understand the four words because they are not true. You are worth it. You are worth so much, Val. I hope you realize it.

How can your parents treat you in the way they do? They really call you a bad child? They're so wrong, then. They must now know the real you, the you that I know and enjoy talking to. I don't pretend to like you, I honestly do, and I will never slap you unless you try to kill yourself. Then I would because I'd be rather hurt.

[Jupiter]

Val you ARE worth it. Sometimes, even though we feel we have no place in this world, we know we do. Please realize that when we are upset, we only think about that bad parts of our lives.

So what if you ARE fat? So what if you're ugly? Anyone who calls you that seriously needs a reality check. There are always people out there who will love you. These people are right behind you, but we can't see them because right now, we are caught looking at ourselves. You have helped so many people,Val. Touched so many lives. You are an example for all of us.

We love you Val. I'm glad you're still hear. You are funny as hell, nice, and you sure know how to brighten up someone's day.

[Scarface]

Being betrayed hurts, I know that feeling, very, very, very well.

There is absolutely no reasons to take the opinions of those who dont mean anymore than what i shit. Though the people that matter that take time and say the things that the people above as well as I say, and mean them with all sincerity.

People that lie and people that waste your time and all that bullshit are not only not worth remembering, but their not worth the space they are taking up inside your head. The people above me as well as I know how wonderful of a person you are and what you have to share with others which you may not see because you are your own worst enemy. Which not many people will admit, but we criticize ourselves more than the worst bully in the world.

Val, I suggest you take a step back and read all of these replies real carefully. This is one honest reply among the many youre going to receive in this thread. Lets get real here okay? I dont need to butter shit up for you and tell you everything gets better because i dont know the kind of people that you associate yourself with, but dont associate yourself with scum that do this shit to you.

You are worth it. Youre just not seeing the light through the fog. Youre letting all the bad take over the good that does exist in your life.

As always you know where i am val when you need me,

Ron

[Mortal Coil]

Val, you are worth it.
You're fun to hang out with (on chat), and sweet and smart, and gutsy, you're just forgetting all of this.
I'm not going to sugar-coat anything here, ok? your situation sucks. But just because the people around you are jerks and, apparently, blind to what you're going through doesn't mean that you aren't worth it. You are. I would seriously hop on a plane and go comfort you in person, except I'm not allowed.
:hug:
Even though the people near you don't care, there are always strangers on other continents who do. Don't give up, please.

[Carlyle]

Val, we all have some sort of reason to be alive. None of us really know what it is until it happens, but you definitely aren't worthless. A lot of people care about you whether you notice it or not. Betrayal always hurts, especially when its someone you are close to, or at least thought you were. You need to get away from the people that make you feel like you're worthless though. They're a bad influence, especially to have you feel this down.

If you're not good enough for people, then they need to accept who you are and like it. Even if you have room to improve things, some people just have such high expectations.

You're not worthless and you shouldn't be making people feel like shit. People need to realize that sometimes you're a certain way for a reason. If they've treated you like shit forever, it can drive someone into depression and what not.

All of us are always here for you Val. I've talked to you about this kind of stuff before and you know my views on it, but please. Don't do anything you might regret. Just take a second to breath and think. Consider the fact that you might be hurting people, even if they don't show it.