Is my life worth it?

[Lethe]

I know I make a lot of threads about depression, but I might as well right it here than be negative in my RL.

I just always have this feeling that my life isn't worth living. I don't have anything going for me; I have no real talents, I'm overweight, I'm not pretty, and I'm not very social. I have some difficulties talking to people because I know they're judging me. So usually I avoid it, but when I do talk to people, I almost always look them in the eyes and I'm sure most people find that weird. Sigh.

I just feel as if I have no place. I see people holding hands and dating and I've never gotten to have that. Yes, I'm young. So what? People have been dating since they were 12, and I never really have. I've never even had a boy actually have a crush on me, despite the fact that I'm friendly, nice and I'm not judgmental or shallow. But maybe I shouldn't be that way. Maybe I should be the exact opposite. Who knows...

Whenever I eat I feel crappy, and even though I exercise I feel like I can't eat and when I do, I feel fatter and grosser, even though I like food. Not to mention I can't lose weight with exercise...

I don't know. I just feel so tired of getting up in the morning and going to school and just being alive. It's like I'm dragging my feet around, like my life is just extra baggage I have to carry around. I think about how many years left I have and I just feel even more tired thinking about living to be 50 or 60 years old. I know I'm never going to find a partner, and college is basically useless because I'm stupid and I have no talent for anything, so why even go when I'm never going to find a major I'm going to excel in? I just feel as if me being here is a complete mistake, and there's no point in me being alive.

So...I don't know. Sigh.

[Martin22]

Everyone's life is worth something. And everyone has a talent, you just have not found it yet. You will one day find someone, and be happy. It just takes time depending on who you are.Try and open up to people and talk to people more,that might help. Answer though is yes - every life is worth living.

[Lethe]

It just seems as if everything I do is low quality. I try hard in class but I always get Bs. I've never had a guy be interested in me before. I've always been fat and I've never had any physical attractiveness to me because of how my body is shaped and just how I look in general. No matter how hard I try, I'm just not that social and I have a bit of trouble talking to people, especially guys, because I know I'm being judged. I don't know. If I were to die, I wouldn't be missed. So why not die?

[Martin22]

You would be missed more than you think by friends and family. You might not be one of those girls that have lots of friends and a new boy every week, but there is someone for everyone. I am guessing your still a young-ish person, you have a good, long life ahead of you. Just try your best and never give up. Do not care what other people think, be happy for yourself and the good points of you.

[Nihilus]

Alrighty, first of all suicide or any form of self abuse is not the answer. It will be a waste of life and it will cause unimaginable grief within your family. Life is hard, and finding something that you excel in takes time. For example, I have recently joined my schools new mountain biking team, and as a beginner I am not great. As time has gone on and I kept at it I am getting better. First Find a activity that enthralls you, then keep at it. If its a sport, keep at it. If its writing, keep at it. My point is that what ever you do you need to find what you like and keep at. If its a sport people will judge you and it will be nerve racking, but as time goes by most people will accept you and appreciate you.

Loosing weight is hard, and it takes diligence. Do what you can and add more physical activity as it becomes easier. Make sure you choose an activity that you enjoy. You diet is a key part of it too. Try cutting the carbs and meats, and go for fruits, veggies (yes I know some taste bad, but find what YOU like) and nuts. Watch what you eat as well. Loosing weight is a result from changing your life style, but when its accomplished you will feel great. This may sound weird, but try taking one drop of iodine in a glass of water and it may help with depression. Depression can be caused by a lack of nutriets and iodine and cause your thyroid to act up.
I am considered different and that is what makes you special. You are young and life does get better, trust me. Looking people in the eyes is part of communicating and if they find that weird, then they are the ones who are odd.
College is just one potential pathway. NEVER say you are stupid. You thread was well written which tells me that you are intelligant. There are people where I live that can't even write an essay, so you are fine.
Talents are something that needs to be found, and the way to do that is to try new things, take some risks (Nothing Extreme, unless that's something you like).
Over, my advice is to try new things, change your life style, and remember that things take time. YOU are not worthless. You are special and unique, and eventually you will find a group of people who appeciate you and want to be around you. The first step is to smile and go about your day. I hope all goes well and if need to talk PM me.
-Benjamin

[Lethe]

That's the problem; I don't feel as if there are any good things about me. I'm not pretty, I'm overweight, I'm big, I can't write well (even though I like to do it), I'm not that social, I'm not very smart, and I'm just overall kind of a waste of time and space. If I were to die and someone else were to take my place, it'd be a positive thing, not a negative thing.

I always feel as if people feel sorry for me or think I'm a waste of time/space because I'm not good at anything, I'm pretty socially awkward, I'm ugly, I'm big, and I have no talent or place. I'd be better off not existing. My parents and friends wouldn't give two shits if I died, to be honest. For my parents it'd be less money wasted, for my friends it'd be one less person to waste time with. It's not as if me dying would be a bad thing.

[Martin22]

Pretty sure you are a lot more liked that you think. There is going to be something your good at, just widen your horizons and find what that is. Times can be tough for us all, but giving up is not the answer, you carry on fighting, win and come out ontop.

[Lethe]

Time's been tough since I realized I was ugly and fat...which was when I was 9. Ever since then I've been acutely aware of my faults (which heavily outweigh my "strengths", if you can call them that). But oh well. I'm hoping for a horrible accident to either end my life or put me into a coma. Crossing my fingers.

[Martin22]

No human life is worth ending. I am not really good at this, maybe you can tell... but just carry on fighting through, things will be better one day.

[Nihilus]

You like writing, well do it! You dying wouldn't be a positive thing, it would hurt those who love you. No one is ever a waste of space. It takes time to figure out who you are, and as time goes on you will find talents. You have said that you like to write, so write. The more you do it the better you will get. A talent needs to be developed so develop it! As for your parents, I'm absolutely sure they love you. Those friends, if they feel that you make them waste time, then they aren't true friends.
You have to give life a chance and take risks by trying new things. Write if you like to. If you like your writing, that is great! Write for your self and don't feel forced to compare your self to another. Death is never the answer.

One of the things that depresses you seemingly is that you see everyone around you dating. Statistically this is not true. I'm 17 almost 18 (2 months =]) and I have never even kissed a girl. There are many people like this, so you are not alone! Most people start dating after high school. My advice is to not worry about dating, and to focus on finding out who YOU are.
Life does get better, trust me on this.
-Benjamin

[Lethe]

Being 17, I haven't seen or experienced once, but still...I feel as if there is no future for me. I'm dumb; I have no As on my report card right now. I'm not attractive, so what guy would ever want me? I'm not social, so it isn't like I'd make friends easy. I just feel as if there's nothing going for me and I'm the biggest waste of space that there is.

[Martin22]

To be honest, I have no A's on my report. I still keep going and push to learn. Been 'fat' can be a hard thing to cope with although I can not give advice on that one. Everyonehas a future, it is just up to you how you decide to write that future and what you decide to do with your life. Do not make a bad choice, and the only bad choice you can make is giving up. Keep your head held high.

[Nihilus]

A's are everything. I generally do get A's on my report card, but I had NO social life by going for those grades. My AP Government teacher had this judge come into my class and he imparted upon me some advice. He said that you won't remember most of what you are supposed to learn in high school, and that the point of high school is to learn how to learn. If you know how to learn and adapt, well in my eyes you have Aced high school. B's are great grades to, but if A's are desired by you, change your study habits a bit.
The first step in becoming attractive is to feel happy. People are drawn to happy people, so put a smile on you face and be happy. Being happy can be hard and that's why the next step is to become active. Sports and physical activy makes you brain release endorphins, which make you feel happy. By being dedicated to sports (physical activity), you will gain something that will help you feel happier (endorphins) and as you lose weight you will look better. Eventually you will become very attractive in your way. Not everyone wants a woman that is pencil thin and a model. Love will come.
This takes time, but is well worth it.
-Benjamin

[Lethe]

I exercise daily and I never feel happy afterwards. If anything I feel fatter, especially if I eat later on. And to be honest, I sincerely doubt any man out there would want a 155lb girl whose big, broad and masculine. Who'd want that? I can guarantee no one would. So what's the point?

[Nihilus]

How much do you exercise? And it's not a question of how long. I can exercise for hours with no improvement if it is too easy. The exercise needs to get your heart rate up and moving, and you should have it up for about half an hour plus for improvement.

[Lethe]

I'm hiking up a mountain daily. It's around 400-500 calories burned off, with intense climbing. My heart is always beating fast. I'm not being lazy or doing easy exercise.

[Nihilus]

If you are doing that much physical exercise, I doubt you are fat. Your weight comes from your muscle and with your height that sounds right. I'm sorry if this generalization is wrong, but from what I have been able to gauge, you are fit and muscular. I don't see why you are unhappy. If you feel comfortable enough, post a picture of yourself so I can see. I honestly don't understand why people don't like you, unless it has to do with your attitude. Can you please describe it?

[Lethe]

I have pictures on my profile...

[Nihilus]

Wtf you aren't ugly at all. Why would think that? You are attractive......

[Lethe]

Well:

1.) I've never dated.
2.) I've never had a guy like me, or find me attractive
3.) I've been TOLD that I'm ugly.
4.) I weigh a ton and I'm big-boned and big-shouldered.
5.) I don't look like other girls.
6.) I can't wear nice clothes because they never look right or they don't fit because of my body shape/type.

I could continue, but you'd be reading a wall of text that's unecessary.

[Peace God]

2.) I've never had a guy like me, or find me attractive

*cough*
I actually think you're pretty hot.

[Nihilus]

Many people our age have yet to date. I just said that you are attractive........ Don't listen to those people that say you are ugly. They may say it so they feel better about themselves (to boost their egos) or because they may be threatened by you (if it was a girl who said it to you. Your weight is natural. Being pencil thin isn't attractive, and your build is natural. You do a lot of exercise to the weight is due to the muscle, and exercise also increases bone density. There is nothing wrong with being big-shouldered. So what if you don't look like other girls, you are beautiful (you do look like a girl so.....). Find close that fit you and look good on you. You don't need to wear what other girls wear. Conforming to what other people expect of you isn't attractive. Be yourself!

[Lethe]

I guess so. Thank you :').

[Brookie Ugene Wagner]

Just keep your head held high, and things will start to look up for you!(:

[Vonn]

I guess so. Thank you :').

...What? Who are you and what have you done with Dee?

But seriously. Everybody in this thread is right. Nice to see you're not fighting it as much.

[Light Warrior 7]

We are put in this world for a purpose ^_^

[Trendea]

We are put in this world for a purpose ^_^


That is so true and thanks for remindin us.:yeah: