What does this sound like?

[antiabort]

I think the most horrible stuff, from violence to crazy sexual fantasies, I have few morals, I am not easily bothered by violence either. (at least, not through a monitor.) and I also am very paranoid. I always think that the fbi is watching me for no reason, i hide behind proxies because I'm afraid i'll get tracked, I often think that there might be cameras/wires in my house and I do not trust my mom, i think she is hiding things from me. I think that martial law will be declared and the world will be like the book 1984, I think that i am handsome as fuck even though I am not. And i am a very loose cannon when it comes to talking. I say the worst things sometimes, like calling my black friend a nigger. he thinks it's funny, but I know it is wrong for me to say it. I would gladly bang almost anything too, from my aunts to girls at school and boys at school. Does this sound like a mental disorder?

[StoppingTime]

I think the most horrible stuff, from violence to crazy sexual fantasies, I have few morals, I am not easily bothered by violence either. (at least, not through a monitor.)

I think that people do not truly understand violence anymore.
They'll see it in a movie, a video game, even just shots of wars on the news, and not let it get to them. However, it is so much more than pictures and drawings.
If you think about what it really going on when you hear the term, "violence" in life, you'll know what I mean. You will start to understand that much more is happening than just what you see.
But no, this does not sound like any mental disorder.
More like a generic teenager to me, though, so don't get worked up over it too much.


and I also am very paranoid. I always think that the fbi is watching me for no reason, i hide behind proxies because I'm afraid i'll get tracked, I often think that there might be cameras/wires in my house

Again, I don't think this is any kind of mental disorder, but think about this:
You should truly only be scared of the FBI if you have something to hide.
If you haven't done anything wrong like that, then don't worry about anything.
And don't worry about cameras in your house, they just aren't there.


and I do not trust my mom, i think she is hiding things from me. I think that martial law will be declared and the world will be like the book 1984, I think that i am handsome as fuck even though I am not.

Sure, she may be hiding things from you. Not knowing her nor you, I do not know your relationship with each other, (but I'm guessing it is not great), and you may feel like she is out to get you.
I really hope this is not true, and that sure really wouldn't do anything against you like that.


And i am a very loose cannon when it comes to talking. I say the worst things sometimes, like calling my black friend a nigger. he thinks it's funny, but I know it is wrong for me to say it. I would gladly bang almost anything too, from my aunts to girls at school and boys at school. Does this sound like a mental disorder?

I don't think any of these classify as a mental disorder, rather, things you need to work on. You aren't good at talking respectfully to people, then actually think about what you are saying to them. Think about how they may take something, even if you don't see a problem with it.
Think about morals. Do you think its right to do what you said? If not, then try and control your urges. The last two are doubtfully not mental disorders.


If you are truly worried, then have someone evaluate you. We can't do that here.

[Moxie]

That sounds like a typical teenager.

If you've watched someone die - not in a video game, but for real - and felt nothing, then perhaps you have a disorder. However, desensitization does not make you ill, it makes you malleable.

[ryan2000]

Well, the first part to me just sounds simply like desensitization, which is caused by the constant viewing of violent or sexual images or videos. The more you view it, the less effect it has on you when you see it. The same can be seen in the world around you. You become so used to seeing trees, that you begin to not even notice that they are there, even when you are surrounded by them on all sides. It's as simple as that. The next part sounds like a minor sense of paranoia, or maybe even some fantasies that could be brought on by watching too many James Bond movies. I had the same feelings after i read the Bourne Identity books and watched the movies. The last part about being handsome, that is PERFECT the way you view yourself. A high view of one's self and a high self-esteem leads to a more healthy and happy lifestyle. You sound perfectly normal to me.