Therapy and Diagnosis

[Rawiyah]

I've already been diagnosed in the past with PTSD and DDNOS.

But now I'm currently undergoing evaluation for psychosis and I'm having a hard time getting myself to talk to my therapist about the things he needs to hear (such as sexual abuse in my past, and the voices that I am hearing, why I OD and why I cut, etc)

I don't want to be psychotic, and I'n hoping that I'm not! But it'll take about five months for the diagnostics to be over, and I don't think I'll manage to survive with myself for another five months without proper treatment. I am really tempted to give up on life right now, there's nothing worth living for anymore. But I'm too scared to tell my therapist because he feels that I am at a high risk for another suicide attempt, and if I do attempt it again, he wants me to stay admitted to the psych ward for another three days to be tested and evaluated again.

I loved my stay in the hospital, and I'm tempted try to OD again just so I can stay, but... I don't want to be diagnosed, but I don't want to get wrong treatment. :mad:

UGH! HFDHFKDS. It's just so confusing right now, and I'm sick of it!
Any advice, or thoughts about this...? It'd be great to know if anyone else here has been, or is also being diagnosed with a psychotic disorder.

[FranticMind]

Hey Alexis!

You may know me :P
I know things have been quite tough for you recently Alexis, and I know it is not my place to say your personal information etc.
But for what you are currently going through I think you are so amazing for staying strong and helping others so much.

Take Care x

[dead]

Whenever I did have to get myself to talk about certain things with a therapist or a doctor I'd just blurt it out and not hold anything back usually I'd almost pass out because of all the emotional turmoil. You can't be something your not, so why not be yourself? If you ever need to or want to talk, PM or VM me.

[Mortal Coil]

I've been through a lot of the stuff you have, and have never been strong enough to talk to anyone. That's incredible in itself. I agree with dead, you shouldn't hold anything back but make sure you know what the loopholes in doctor-patient confidentiality are first, unless you want other people knowing.
Best of luck and VM me if you need/want anything!

[Kaius]

I'm going to be honest here, what you're feeling is something a lot of us have faced maybe in the past or how we're feeling now. The best thing you can possibly do is be honest with your counselor. I've also got PTSD, so i know how difficult it can be to actually let people in at any time or point but believe me, its your best choice. You don't have to attempt suicide to be sectioned, you can go in willingly if you're seen to be experiencing turmoil and suicidal intentions which he's clearly seen you experiencing. Really, talk to him, this way you can get the help you require.

If you don't feel like you can be honest face to face, write a letter. Write everything you can think of and either email it to him or give it to him the next time you see him. He'll understand you can't outrightly say certain things because in a lot of cases its a normal reaction.

If you need to talk to someone you can always pm or vm me. I'm happy to help.