fxbreaker
January 25th, 2012, 11:35 PM
PLEASE dont just go, oh god lot of text, just gonna skip this one...please just read this and save me some hardship, at least skip to the end
to be straight forward this relationship was destined to be a DISASTER...She was the new girl and we met through my friends at lunch that befriended her. We quickly became friends since we lived in the same neighborhood and we started seeing each other outside of school..after a week she said i was cute and she LIKED me..I waited awhile to ask her out and she said yes
She's a freshman and I'm a senior..DO NOT make a judgement here, she looks older for her age, and I'm not one of those seniors with a beard and beer gut..I'm usually mistaken for a sophmore or junior...
Anyways we just overlooked that, the thing is we had to hide our relationship from her mom because she knew i was a senior. Also shes a little more preppy and im more skater, that is if i HAD to label people which i dont. We really didnt care what people think..people didnt think anything bad of our relationship either.
It was a normal relationship, holding hands, hug and kissed etc..
-the next day after we hung out on the strip (live in vegas), at school we saw each other in the morning and we kissed, it was all good...then she texted me that she just wanted to be friends..she said our relationship was "awkward" and said it was fun and better when we were friends-
even though she initiated that she liked me first, and she said she had a good time the day before at the strip..she just broke it off like that.
NOW, we are just friends and I've accepted that, it is perfectly fine and probably better this way for everyone involved.
We talk everyday, we still sit with each other at lunch, we are friends and we still hang out occasionally..
I still get kind of "jealous" or "angry" as she says, when shes like texting or hugging some other guy..
today I said I'll stop being a jerk acting that way and l'm okay with being friends...I really meant it too.
My problem is I find myself randomly just getting extremely depressed and heart sore just thinking about her, shes always popping into my head...whenever I'm with her I feel good and I'm fine, but knowing we're only friends is just killing me and i WANT to be happy that we're just friends, Ive accepted it 100% but I'm just cant get over her. This emotional roller coaster topped with a new semester and i hate all my classes is adding more emotional stress, its making me physically tired and mentally exhausted, I just dont want this pain anymore.
Please anyone, give me some advice, you have no idea how much I need it.
to be straight forward this relationship was destined to be a DISASTER...She was the new girl and we met through my friends at lunch that befriended her. We quickly became friends since we lived in the same neighborhood and we started seeing each other outside of school..after a week she said i was cute and she LIKED me..I waited awhile to ask her out and she said yes
She's a freshman and I'm a senior..DO NOT make a judgement here, she looks older for her age, and I'm not one of those seniors with a beard and beer gut..I'm usually mistaken for a sophmore or junior...
Anyways we just overlooked that, the thing is we had to hide our relationship from her mom because she knew i was a senior. Also shes a little more preppy and im more skater, that is if i HAD to label people which i dont. We really didnt care what people think..people didnt think anything bad of our relationship either.
It was a normal relationship, holding hands, hug and kissed etc..
-the next day after we hung out on the strip (live in vegas), at school we saw each other in the morning and we kissed, it was all good...then she texted me that she just wanted to be friends..she said our relationship was "awkward" and said it was fun and better when we were friends-
even though she initiated that she liked me first, and she said she had a good time the day before at the strip..she just broke it off like that.
NOW, we are just friends and I've accepted that, it is perfectly fine and probably better this way for everyone involved.
We talk everyday, we still sit with each other at lunch, we are friends and we still hang out occasionally..
I still get kind of "jealous" or "angry" as she says, when shes like texting or hugging some other guy..
today I said I'll stop being a jerk acting that way and l'm okay with being friends...I really meant it too.
My problem is I find myself randomly just getting extremely depressed and heart sore just thinking about her, shes always popping into my head...whenever I'm with her I feel good and I'm fine, but knowing we're only friends is just killing me and i WANT to be happy that we're just friends, Ive accepted it 100% but I'm just cant get over her. This emotional roller coaster topped with a new semester and i hate all my classes is adding more emotional stress, its making me physically tired and mentally exhausted, I just dont want this pain anymore.
Please anyone, give me some advice, you have no idea how much I need it.