My story

[Princess Ariel]

I feel like this is my breaking point.
No matter how much people say they love me, I can never believe them.
Why would someone care for me?

I've been bullied my whole life, Yes my whole life.
Even when I was born.
I found a video of me, still with my eyes closed.
Hear my mom say "Oh. It's a girl"
Ever since then she deny's it, and when I show her the video, she blames it on my technology skills.

Then their is this one girl ; Melissa H.
I've known her since I was 4.
She's treated me horribly ever since, Lied to me, Used me.
I'm still really close with her today, But I feel like she's replaced me.
Just like that.
Like, I meant nothing.
No matter how much I dislike her.
I can't say no to her.

Then with my mom AGAIN
She makes me feel like useless trash on a daily basis.
I get yelled at for every small thing.. Like if I was opening the microwave
Isn't home where you're supposed to be safe?!

At school, back then and even now I'm bullied..
I would always get teased because of my glasses.
Because I was different.
Now, I get pushed around the lockers, like I'm an invisible ghost.
Mom wouldn't care. Not one bit. She will think that I made it up, or i'm over exaggerating.

I've always felt like a ghost.
Always wanted to end it all.
The one thing holding me back is this one person.
This person has made me feel human, But as the days go by, I can see this person slowing moving away because of someone else getting in the middle.

If I end up losing contact soon, I don't think i'll be able to overcome.

[Jupiter]

I feel like this is my breaking point.
No matter how much people say they love me, I can never believe them.
Why would someone care for me?

Hey Casey. I'm Eric. I love this forum, and I am glad you joined. This forum helps so many people, and I was at my breaking point, just about to boil over when I started posting around, and becoming an active member on virtualteen. This site is one of the best things you can find on the internet.

I've been bullied my whole life, Yes my whole life.
Even when I was born.
I found a video of me, still with my eyes closed.
Hear my mom say "Oh. It's a girl"
Ever since then she deny's it, and when I show her the video, she blames it on my technology skills.

Well, to be honest, maybe she just wasn't expecting a girl. Even if she wasn't expecting a girl, I am sure that she learned to love you, even though it's not hard to do when you raise a child. She loves you, and she wants to keep you forever, even if she was a bit disappointed when you were born. Trust me, she loves you. Are you an only child, and is your dad with you?

Then their is this one girl ; Melissa H.
I've known her since I was 4.
She's treated me horribly ever since, Lied to me, Used me.
I'm still really close with her today, But I feel like she's replaced me.
Just like that.
Like, I meant nothing.
No matter how much I dislike her.
I can't say no to her.

Yeah, a lot of people out there stepped on, used and treated like dirt. Sometimes, the hardest thing to do in life is let go of those people who you just can't keep anymore, those people who don't make you feel good inside. Because, eventually, you will steam out on them, and that won't be good. Don't get me wrong, some people just need to be forgiven, but some people really cannot be trusted.

I've been replaced a few times, and I know it sucks. One thing I learned is that I have to pick up the pieces, because if I dwell in the past, I will miss the near future and present.

Then with my mom AGAIN
She makes me feel like useless trash on a daily basis.
I get yelled at for every small thing.. Like if I was opening the microwave
Isn't home where you're supposed to be safe?!

I can't say that I have been yelled at for opening the microwave, but something you just have to understand, she is your mother, and she is trying to watch out for you. She loves you, and don't you forget it.

At school, back then and even now I'm bullied..
I would always get teased because of my glasses.
Because I was different.
Now, I get pushed around the lockers, like I'm an invisible ghost.
Mom wouldn't care. Not one bit. She will think that I made it up, or i'm over exaggerating.

Glasses? People still bully over that? Over half my school wears glasses, so it isn't uncommon. You need to know you ARE different. You will always be. Everyone is different. All people need to stay different, because without that, we just can't stay the same as everyone else.

I'm sorry you were bullied. I can relate, although not being pushed around. My school doesn't have much of a bullying issue, I'm really not sure why.

I've always felt like a ghost.
Always wanted to end it all.
The one thing holding me back is this one person.
This person has made me feel human, But as the days go by, I can see this person slowing moving away because of someone else getting in the middle.

If I end up losing contact soon, I don't think i'll be able to overcome.

Well, at least you found a reason to be happy. That's great! You need to now think, "what happens if I lose this person? Will I lose control? What will happen."

I know it seems like no one cares, I know. But many people do. Trust me. If you EVER need to reach me, just get ahold of me on here.

[Princess Ariel]

Hey Eric.
I am an only child, and my dad had passed away when I was 6..
I was told that this school was safe.
I don't feel safe.
I was actually getting a gun pointed at my head last year.
So I switched schools..
It wasn't that she was expecting a boy, it was kind of like "Oh great. When she's a teenager I 'll have to listen to all her teenage gossip"

It was HER choice to have me.
Yet she thinks that it was my fault!

[Magenta]

Sad thing is that you can pick your friends but not your family. But as you get older, you end up picking your family. When you move out, when you get a job and can support yourself, it's up to you how you deal with your mother. You don't have to see her if you don't want to. Then you do pick your family and you pick the friends that make you happy and feel safe and loved.

There are people who care about you, Casey. Some people don't know how to show it or don't admit it until it's too late but they don't mean anything bad by it. But you have to remember there are people who care. I certainly do and you know I'll always try to look out for you when I can. I've not stepped in for you when people were being nasty on Facebook because I felt I had to, I wanted to. I can promise you that there will always be at least one person who cares. Anyway, there's people like Eric who want to try and help you here. :) Hold on to that and remember those people, not the ones who treat you like dirt.

You are brilliantly kind and caring and such a wonderful girl. You were also my first friend in a class I was honestly terrified of because you're all a year younger than me and I had been away for a year and never met your grade. So what if your mum wanted a boy? She got such a great daughter and it's a shame if she doesn't see that or doesn't acknowledge it if she does.

As for people bullying you at school, I cannot stress enough to tell someone. That kind of thing is not tolerated at our school. Not at all. Guidance is always there to talk to and both of the counselors are great and very attentive and willing to accommodate all sorts of situations. The vice principals are a bit scary but they are there to help deal with these issues. You should not have to go through this. This is one of the rare posts where I get to honestly say to someone without a doubt that you can most certainly get help at school because it's my school as well.

:hug:

Stay strong, hun.

[Jupiter]

Well, do you have a good friend?

[Princess Ariel]

Well, do you have a good friend?


I have two..
One of which I just can't talk about this, because then she goes on how selfish this is of me.

[Jupiter]

Is she on the site?

[Princess Ariel]

Sad thing is that you can pick your friend but not your family.


My Nana told me that my mom tried to put me up for adoption, but didn't since Dad didn't give her the access to the papers.

And Jo, I am too scared to go into the office.
I'm giving Kaara my hours sheet to hand in for me tomorrow since I'll be asked to talk to guidance since I didn't come one time.
That's why I walk so quickly out of the school, I'm afraid that they will follow me home..

Today was a rare occasion when I'm still in the building 2 minutes after the bell. I'm out faster than you can say Dino Troll.

Thanks for all the compliments.. Smiled...

Is she on the site?

As a matter of fact. Yes she is..
She has helped me through a lot.
Got me to talk, even when I couldn't
Listened to me complain, and never judged..

Please don't double or triple post. Use the edit button at the bottom of your post. - Jo/Magenta

[DirtyDog78]

I know how you feel. I was ALWAYS bullied, but one year i became popular. I dont even know how up till today. In 6th Grade ALL the kids at my school bullied me. Pushed me, Kicked me, ripped my stuff. and threw my stuff in the trash. Even my dad doent like me at all. No one in my dads side. Do what i do. IGNORE THEM. seems too simple, but it works. Trust me. I sometimes also feel nobody loves me, but i dont give a damn.

[Jupiter]

As a matter of fact. Yes she is..
She has helped me through a lot.
Got me to talk, even when I couldn't
Listened to me complain, and never judged..

That is good that you get to talk to her. Is she an active member?