Ace_of_Spades
January 25th, 2012, 01:59 PM
So, my boyfriend and i just got in, i guess a fight last night. The only reason i'm not sure what it is, is because it was like he was attacking me, i never fought back. Okay, i'll explain it, to try and make more sense. So, we get in little arguments from time to time, just normal stuff, but then he generally lets his temper get the better of him and then he says stuff that really hurts me.
So, he's been doing that a lot lately and he was feeling really bad about it, so he kept telling me, last night, that i should just leave him and get someone who will treat me well. I told him that i loved him, though, and that i will never leave him, and i meant it.
So then he to get really mean, because he wanted me to hate him and leave him. He said things like "I don't love you" "i hate guys who paint their nails" "i'll never accept you" "I'm already in love with someone else so go away" "i don't care if you die" etc. The worst part about this is he knows that i can't take stuff like that, i mean, i have a history with cutting and i occasionally get suicidal thoughts, but he kept saying things like that, and the whole time i was begging him to stop, but he wouldn't.
So then he eventually said "bye" and then ignored everything else i said, but he came back after an hour or so and asked me if i would forgive him and take him back. I did take him back, i mean, all i want is to be with him, and so i didn't even hesitate, and he apologized a lot about doing that, but i don't really know if i should have taken him back. He really hurt me and he said horrible things to me, and although i really want him, am i making the right choice? Should i have just left him and tried to find someone else?
Anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this, and replying, if you do :)
So, he's been doing that a lot lately and he was feeling really bad about it, so he kept telling me, last night, that i should just leave him and get someone who will treat me well. I told him that i loved him, though, and that i will never leave him, and i meant it.
So then he to get really mean, because he wanted me to hate him and leave him. He said things like "I don't love you" "i hate guys who paint their nails" "i'll never accept you" "I'm already in love with someone else so go away" "i don't care if you die" etc. The worst part about this is he knows that i can't take stuff like that, i mean, i have a history with cutting and i occasionally get suicidal thoughts, but he kept saying things like that, and the whole time i was begging him to stop, but he wouldn't.
So then he eventually said "bye" and then ignored everything else i said, but he came back after an hour or so and asked me if i would forgive him and take him back. I did take him back, i mean, all i want is to be with him, and so i didn't even hesitate, and he apologized a lot about doing that, but i don't really know if i should have taken him back. He really hurt me and he said horrible things to me, and although i really want him, am i making the right choice? Should i have just left him and tried to find someone else?
Anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this, and replying, if you do :)