Traumatic events resulting in a personality disorder...

[Moxie]

Hello there. I'm new to this forum, and this is my first official post. TL;DR version is that I was abused (not sexually) by my father since I was 10. When I was 14, something bad happened, and something inside me snapped. I didn't notice it at first, but it became very prominent later.

Now, I know that many teens go through a "I hate the world" phase, but I can honestly say that I now feel no empathy or compassion towards other human beings. I can enjoy conversations or respect someone, but I don't relate to them in a relationship-type way.

I've also had very violent thoughts (I won't go into detail), and began manipulating others as if they were but means to an end, not ends to a mean, if that makes sense. I won't go into details with those experiences either, as that's not what I'm here for.

Anyways, I'm currently seeing a psychologist, and she believes that I show signs of "antisocial personality disorder", which is, for those of you who don't know, a disorder much like sociopathy, but with a few exceptions (one of which being that it can be caused by traumatic events in one's childhood).

I'll be going to an anger management group soon so that I don't hurt anyone, as my psychologist is rather worried, despite my reassurances that I have good self control.

Here's my real question. Are there any other people on this forum who've got some sort of disorder/effect due to trauma? If so, I'd be fascinated to hear your story.

My apologies for the long post.

[shadowhunter320]

I've been diagnosed as "insane". I have strange visions, disturbing thoughts, etc... I visited a psychologist. She went into the other room and started talking on the phone about how I figured her out, and I need an institution. Apparently "to save me from my self". She said, " he has extreme comprehension and broke all my techniques, if we put him in a hospital now, we can save him." I then immediately cut all contact with her, and avoided being an "insane" person. Not sure if this is what you're looking for, but that's my story.

[Moxie]

I've been diagnosed as "insane". I have strange visions, disturbing thoughts, etc... I visited a psychologist. She went into the other room and started talking on the phone about how I figured her out, and I need an institution. Apparently "to save me from my self". She said, " he has extreme comprehension and broke all my techniques, if we put him in a hospital now, we can save him." I then immediately cut all contact with her, and avoided being an "insane" person. Not sure if this is what you're looking for, but that's my story.

That's very interesting, though I must say that your psychologist sounds like she was rather unprofessional.

I'm a little curious about the last part, though. How does one avoid being an "insane" person? Or better yet, what is classified as "insane" in the first place?

[shadowhunter320]

That's very interesting, though I must say that your psychologist sounds like she was rather unprofessional.

I'm a little curious about the last part, though. How does one avoid being an "insane" person? Or better yet, what is classified as "insane" in the first place?

Yes! She was extremely unprofessional...There were many people trying to take me to an asylum, I avoided them. And I have no clue, I was told I'm insane.

[Magenta]

You'll get more relevant responses about disorders here.

Abuse :arrow: Mental Illnesses


And to respond to your question, I was bullied for a long time and didn't feel good enough at home so I ended up with a social anxiety disorder. I have a very hard time facing people for fear of them judging me or something I've done. I fear negative feedback but I also don't respond well to praise because I'm suspicious of their motives as well as them thinking bad things about me if I don't reply in the right way. I can't be in crowds because all of the people around me cause far too much stress due to believing they all think I am some freak.

[Moxie]

You'll get more relevant responses about disorders here.

Abuse :arrow: Mental Illnesses


And to respond to your question, I was bullied for a long time and didn't feel good enough at home so I ended up with a social anxiety disorder. I have a very hard time facing people for fear of them judging me or something I've done. I fear negative feedback but I also don't respond well to praise because I'm suspicious of their motives as well as them thinking bad things about me if I don't reply in the right way. I can't be in crowds because all of the people around me cause far too much stress due to believing they all think I am some freak.

Thanks for the advice on the thread placement, I'm still new here and am trying to figure it out. It was also nice to hear about your experiences.

[Rawiyah]

I have DDNOS and PTSD, which are both trauma based disorders.

I was diagnosed with PTSD last year, and my therapist and I are working with a recent DDNOS dx. this year, however, he thinks I am showing symptoms of a possible psychotic disorder, which, would also be trauma based.

I was sexually abused as a kid, so I guess that sort of 'started' the PTSD symptoms, and the DDNOS began as well when I had a hard time focusing in public school classes and focusing in general. I dissociate very often, because of the DDNOS and I also have "alters" or "alternative personalities" because of the DDNOS, however, I don't have DID and I can't be diagnosed with DID yet because of my age, that's why my T is thinking that it's psychosis instead.

My uncle (who was also my abuser) used to call me Jeykll & Hyde. :lol: