Broken..

[Princess Ariel]

Not really broken, but really badly sprained.
I was so lonely last night.. Thinking of my friend Emily who died not to long ago, and my Dad whom I lost when I was 6..
See last night, I had so much medication next to my bed.
I actually was going to end it all, 3 bottles chugged down, A little light headed, but no death. So I continued..

I lost control of my body and fell on my right arm, and kept hitting the ground. Hard.
I didn't know why.
I went to the ER earlier today, and they told me that I sprained my wrist.
They took some shots, and proceeded to tell me about the damage that I did.
They said I was lucky to be alive.
But I don't want to be.
It's pretty obvious after what I've done.

But honestly.
Why am I still here?
The amount of pills, and excessive bleeding could've killed anyone.
But why not me?
:confused:

[Magenta]

Aw, Casey. :hug:

You're still here because there are people who love you and would hate to see you die. Emily wouldn't want that. I certainly would never want that. You are an absolute joy to be around and you're a great friend. I'm really glad you're okay. You know there's other options other than to keep doing this to yourself, hun. There's plenty of help out there and I know you've asked for it before. You deserve to be happy, Casey. :)

:hug: <-- that works for now until I actually see you, in which case you get a better one, 'kay?

You know how to reach me whenever, right? Even in the middle of the night if you need because I always answer, if not right away (though I try to). I truly mean it.

[Princess Ariel]

Thanks Jo..
But in all actuality, No one does care really but you.
Everyone else (Michelle, Claire, Ashley) They think I'm all smiles, but I'm truly dying inside.


Thanks for all the compliments. The feeling is mutual..
I wish I could write more, but I must leave for school.. In the rain :/
Huggles back... * doesn't know how to do that emote*

[dark_soul777]

I know I don't really know you, but for what it's worth, I care about you :)
I know how hard things are at the moment, but at least they can only get better.
I also would wright more, but it's 2 am here and I need some sleep...
If you need someone to talk to or if there's something I can do to help, I'm here for you :)

[Carlyle]

All of us care about you here, we're here to help :) If they think your all smiles and you never show any sign of something being wrong around some people, they just don't bother to check that everything is ok. I can guarantee you that you would have at least a few people listen to you if you actually mentioned something about being down and under the weather, whatever the reason may be :)